Milki3

2007-05-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

I just hope you can see
although it is just drifting away
I'm losing the faith in myself
One last struggle
I'm tired

2007-05-29T19:03:00.000+08:00

When I'm sleepy, doesn't necessary means I'm... Well afterall, nobody knows how to look from my eyes...
Not feeling well today, headache, and...

I don't understand why, I told myself not to fall for you yet, bt todae, I'm really quite sad. I, miss you... But there isn't anything I can do. I'm really getting headache, my head feels heavy... There isn't anyone to talk to about, I don't trust anyone, and i doubt they will be willing to listen either.
Do you know, everytime whn I see you, I am just like normal on the outside, bt I'm happy whn I see you, your smile, your eyes. I just feel mesmerized by you. I feel happy... you brought the smile back to me.
Now, its been 4days, and we're just getting furthur apart... Please don't leave...

~~please~~

2007-05-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

Sch started once more, and our lesson starts at 3pm coz there's no BFI~ MA was the usual, nxt week gotta present, i hate figures~ Had our FA test, it was quite confusing~ oh well...
Wanted to take bus home todae due to some reasons~ bt juz nice 74 so many people so took train, half way lisi called and so i decided to go eat wif them... Went PS' Ajisen Ramen or smth to eat, had my usual Vegetable Curry Ramen + Takoyaki... went home after that while the others went to walk ard i guess... tiring way back home

I've quite alot to say, bt guess i'll just keep it to myself...
I feel that i'm no longer who i used to be, people say changes are gd, bt i juz hope mine is~ coz, ever since that i dun seems to be as daring, as happy and all... its just plain boredom, and that's why you went i guess. Afterall what am i compared to the people going after you? I tink i'm only allowed to admire you, bt nt to have you by my side till i die...
What is this familiar feeling? I'm afraid, sad? bt what more can i do, i'll just have to let this go~ We're worlds apart~
I shall smile more, i dun like others to see the emo side of me... especially you...

2007-05-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

I'm red now~ hope its juz red, i dun want my skin to peel~ lol, we met 0915 at harbour, ahahs whn i reached it was 0920 or smth ard there, thn only gt me, roy, jh and ian... lol, jonan said cannot go, jerina gt smth on... so aft smtime gt ard all arrived, ate mac for breakfast... thn we slowly walk and all to the station to take the train... ahahas, i dun like the card thing, like gt problem... nvm, we went to siloso bt it was very crowded and all, so end up going palawan...
LOL, i like the sun, bt it drizzled a lil during 1+ 2.. hmms i just realised quite little people love to play volleyball... thn whn playin frisbee with khalis they all, the ball kinda swam to the deeper part~ oh and yea, i'm afraid of the seawater, as in if i swim far out, i will scared... smmore the seaweed like tangling my legs.... i hate seaweeds... hmms, played cards awhile and had "lunch"~ went tanjong beach there, quite quiet and nice, bt very ulu and no toilet~ bt we saw a model taking pictures there... quite pretty~ hahahaas
left at ard 5+ 6? i'm also nt very sure, bathed and took e train back.. hahas we ate at vivo, that restaurant sucks, as in the fish n chips, seriously~ there's the fish smell, and its hard to cut... 12.90~ oh and there's no cheese.. lousy lousy~ i still miss my suntec $5 or $6 fish n chips, i forgot the price, bt it seriously is very very nice~ its very filling and the fish taste brilliant... bt the kopitiam closed alrdy~ tsk tsk
went giant, we wanted to get ice cream, end up we nvr buy coz cannot decide on one~ went hm, my legs r killing me... well overall, its quite an outing~ its one of those days where i nvr say tired or sian~ Coz i love the sun~~~ hahhahas
oh yea, NOTE: Aileen shall not play games regarding concentration... WAHAHAHAHAA!!!!

Don't sway, don't ever go away... nice song~ "sway" by bic runga, i haf been listening to it since sec3~ there was a story behind it.. bt now i juz find that its nice and meaningful... very meaningful.. time to rest~

2007-05-22T14:11:00.000+08:00

ok here's my 600th post~ which is quite stupid...

woke up and got a feeling to go HG mall to eat and buy bubble tea, so get prepared and all, just whn i was about to leave~ it rain... so wait till the rain become smaller thn go... on my way back, at the overhead bridge... got those sec4 or 3, bt they look more like sec4... yea sec4 ah bengs walking down the steps as if their grandfather owns it.. thn is like the i noe they will go bang my shoulder and crap, coz for pri and sec sch ah bengs i tink they like to do that, so kinda stiffen my shoulder, and what's best... whn he bang my shoulder he got knockback~ stupid~ really stupid, banging people's shoulder on a bridge that is wide enuff to walk properly is stupid enough... and here's the little conversation between ah beng and I

Ah Beng: NB, cannot walk properly ar!!
Me: Look who's not walking properly?
Ah Beng walks down, I walk up~

yea, its very dumb~ i've no idea why sec and even pri sch students like to scold all the vulgarities and why they like to act beng? is it really that cool for them? during my batch most is like just normal... lucky i'm out of sec sch alrdy~ Deyi sec students also getting worst... lol wonder what will happen few yrs down the road

2007-05-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

We love E-Learning week, but not E-Learning week with projects~

drats~

2007-05-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

FIRSTLY, Happy B'dae to Hsiu Fen~ LOL!!

wednesday overslept, thurs overslept, todae also almost overslept~ LOL!!! well, there isn't much happening though... lets c, ytd was very gloomy, it rained~ mood was ultra bored and i carn get high, keep sian sian~ however lecture was quite funny especially the tom cruise part~ HAHAHAA, shhh~ bt UCCD almost every1 sleeping... went chomp chomp wif roy, jh and jx... it was a little boring though, tink almost all of us oso cannot high.. so ate and walked one round thn we go off... lol, looked ard for the MA raw data, bt i carn seems to get it... thn whn i got the ECM ans oso quite slow~ srry JoJo... hahahas, bt i managed to fly ytd night~ hohoho!! and i slept well...

todae UCCD was very very boring... hmms once again, whn was UCCD fun? MA was alright, during 2hrs break went to sit wif lisi they all at the linkway to the photocopy shop there... kinda funny coz was crapping ard~ all e while i didn't knew hsiu fen will crap oso~ at ard 1.30 roy they came back wif the cake and the Sunflower for hsiu fen, hahahas thn we sang the bdae song and all... RWPS was boring also, bt aloy very funny go and draw on the picture~ the process was funny, bt the final output quite alrigh, hahahaha... thn was using notepad to chat wif jh, quite funny, thn the tutor keep asking me qns... so took train wif jerina, she went to YCK i alighted at AMK, and juz nice JoJo was there, hahas waited for my fren while we chat a little... whn my fren arrived JoJo went to her bus stop~ felt kinda bad though, coz ended up JoJo alone~ =(

went NYNY wif Siying to eat, hahas and we chatted a little~ Oh yea, Note: "NYNY people at AMK HUB are weird"... lol, they r truly quite weird~ walked ard aft we ate thn went hm~

I HATE THE LOWER DECK OF DOUBLE DECK BUS~ especially whn i got squeezed to stand at the rear end, i will die of neck fatigue, i carn stand straight for god's sake~ i alrdy slouched as much as i could and my hair still can touch the ceiling, how nice~ i tink mayb can write to SBS as a comment for double deck buses? tiring bus ride, lucky i got a seat at ard bowen~

Thurs gonna be sentosa outing, i guess~ i hope so... the guys almost all watches soccer, and there's one match between Liverpool and smth, nt sure... so i worry they cannot wake up... hais~ this sucks~ i've been waiting for sentosa, thn now like also dunnoe how~ crap~

2007-05-15T18:34:00.000+08:00

ytd after logging off frm MSN, went to eat 5 pieces of bread wif the nutella~ and i went to sleep, its so hard to get down to sleep, i've no idea why also, toss and turned till don't noe what time... even aft i fell asleep, keep waking up suddendly and my throat was feeling bad, thanks to nutella~ drank my bottle of water, still not much use... finally fell asleep again, the stupid rain came~ suddendly so huge, got to wake up and close my window~ i'm quite scared of cold so dun usually on air con~ my body auto alarm clock woke me up at 8am~ no wonder todae so tired..

Met JOJO at hg mrt, todae's mrt wasn't as crowded and the trip was very fast.. we also saw jojo's best fren~ right? WAHAHAHAHAA... okok, FA was tiring... i carn get things into my brain~ gonna revise durin E learning, the test on mon smmore... MA lesson cancelled, so 3hrs break... went PizzaHut with Khalis, Roy, Jing Han, Jacelyn, Lisi, Hsiu Fen, Aileen, Jie Xin, Lina and Jerina also joined us later... we were talking about the sentosa trip also, guess we have to plan furthur... Oh, and nt to mention, our "Fast" walkin speed frm FC5 to SB... played a little of the "Game of Concentration". ECM really made me feel like juz lying on the floor and sleep~ AND, now i have to do the qns5... i'm really feeling so tired..

The trip home was cold again, I don't noe why bt the air con is really on full blast or smth~ i need more fats~ tml sch at 10am~ god save me~ and our long awaited E-Learning week is approaching, bt we got lots of proj to deal with!!! crap crap crap... oh well, tml will be a boring day~ while today was a happy day, though I'm like so sleepy throughout the lessons~

my friend juz saw the news, in Singapore there's the strong wind and a tree fell, killed a female jogger and injured her two other friends... scary, i shall jog carefully too~
and another case, in other country... a guy killed her mother whn she is sleeping and chopped off the head thn brought it to the police station... like wth...

2007-05-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

test test stupid blogger...
crap typed so long, thn it tells me untitled post, boring..
Main points:
1) Feels happy

2) Don't wanna think abt it alrdy since it iss gonna be that way, just let it go by itself

3) MA was hell

4) BFI was crapping session

5) Saw my sec sch buddies bt nvr say hi and all, if that's gonna be the case, i won't acknowledge thm too

6) 205 gatherin, saturday at Kbox, juz gonna hear thm sing, i can't sing

7) 08 gathering during E-Learning week at sentosa, hopes it don't rain or last minute cancel

8) Sleepy

9) Bread at home is restocked!!

oh and whn i was eating dinner while watchin animal planet~ i like this ad with the song that goes "we go around, around the world... around the animal kingdom we go~" hahahas, so nice~

2007-05-12T02:22:00.000+08:00

random post...

i really find it dumb... juz because of that and this is what we get... i've no idea why... if that's the way its goin to be, there isn't a second step to it i guess... this is utterly pathetic... I'll just leave it to fate, time will tell

well very random indeed, fk off if u're gonna gossip, yea the reader...

2007-05-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

hahahas overslept today, end up missing UCCD and MA... went cityhall to eat BK, wanted to have the Fish n Chips, bt whn i walked there, its alrdy closed down.. so no choice ate BK.. slacked around and went off to sch, boring as usual... went home after that, i do not know why bt in class i was very very very bored and sian, bt once out of class, can get more high~ thn keep crapping... Wooooo~ i feel alot happier thn the past few days, yea, guess i'll juz heck care it... shan't bother about it... oh ya, i bought my PSP cover alrdy $29.90... i also saw a lady buyin PS3, so jealous~ todae as i was walking past HMV a lady walked out and juz nice the starting part of a song the shop was playin sounded like sm1 fartin, i was shocked, thn once i heard the person singin thn i realise how stupid i was.. and i 4got to say ytd, i saw a BMW in our sch, very nice!! the wheel rim is big, there's a small window at the ceiling, and its very sleek... nice, and i belive the price of it shld be very nice too... i have not seen that design b4 until ytd~ so yea..

i guess that's what you want, and there it is~

2007-05-10T17:33:00.000+08:00

Its just a few weeks, and it all turned into this... well, it is clear, I tink she just want to be strangers.. I really feel so sick of things, everytime it just become like this~ i'm quiet, nt loud enuff, doesn't joke so much, emo~ guess what the girls whom i like always or almost always like loud, joker type, very cheerful types of guys... sigh~ i just suck... its really very hurting whn sm1 treats u like a stranger whn she found out that u like her, and even the simple friendship will also be broken... why? guess we shall just be strangers from here on... till smday whn u'll chat with me like how we used to chat, allowing me to look into ur eyes as we talk, be able to joke with me... i do not know u, u do not know me... i juz hope my heart will be able to do that too... although its a short period, bt yea... anyways i also do not want it to be like the past... however in the past, that girl is still frens with me...

As I was walkin home after my journey to hougang mrt, it was such a wonderful weather, the sky was so clear and blue, clouds are just drifting aimlessly in the gentle breeze. I saw two birds playin tag in the sky~ the gentle rays frm the late afternoon sun brought me into a clearer world which had been shrouded by the rain inside. With the familiar music playing from my mp3, I've made up my mind...
If it will be, it definately will someday... someday we'll know.

2007-05-08T19:00:00.000+08:00

wooo, i love the song "sway" by bic runga~ it juz calms myself down, smmore typing wif the wind blowing, its gd that my window is nt obstructed... back to that song, yea, there's a past to it, though its nt a very gd one, bt wooooooo, i juz luv that song...

hmms, e day todae was boring... juz another day passing by... met the class at e mrt station, hahahaas~ and yea~ FA lecture was very tiring for me, i dunnoe why bt i'm very sleepy~ as usual MA tutorial is we do he talk... lunch, lib slack, ECM tutorial~ HOME... lol~ CAMPFIRE IS BURNING NOW~ tsk tsk...

I've learnt~ glad i did....

2007-05-07T20:18:00.000+08:00

hmms~ tink i'm tired, whn i'm tired i become emo~ and i'm always tired... lol, its so crappy... i miss sec sch days~ have been tryin hard to cheer up and all, if everytime sian sian, friends will start to find me boring... guess i understand how my fren felt~ i carn seems to bring out the old me... my life is screwed... this yr going 18, juz hope i will be better?

no point keep talking abt the same issue.. seriously, i tink its time to start a personal blog... i wonder~ hmm..

If the rain never stops,
what will it be?
Chaos hid itself in me.
Steps,
of agony.
Thoughts,
of emptiness.
Patience,
is just a saying;
Kindness,
is yet another...
Then what is this that I feel?
I've lost it,
once more...
A broken string will never be pieced back into one.
That is the only beginning...
Seconds passed,
everything rust...
Hours passed,
it turned to dust.
Chapters of me,
drifting beyond my grasp.
I can no long see,
what lies ahead of me.
A moment of clarity,
another of misery.
Doubts, fear, confusion,
why do they have to stay?
I never knew,
that petal was never a flower.
One that brought peace.
That familiar tranquility in me,
dissappeared in a blink.
Clouds gathered,
will my rain ever stop?
Please...

-My rain

2007-05-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

well, have you ever been in situations where u've juz so much to carry on ur shoulders, however due to past events, u dare nt trust anyone... as u carry the weight around for long, its tires u... smtimes I isolate myself from the world, its not like I like doing that, bt its smhow, I feel that i don't belong, that i don't feel right, that i don't trust... every once in awhile I breakdown, bt hell, which guy wld show that out ya? i guess, the only one i can count on is myself, to be independent... bt its juz so hard, yea, others do goes thru that... is it me? or is it real? i wonder, its being very long since i let my inner thoughts out, people view me as anti social, dao... its juz that, i dun feel right... smthings r keeping me frm the old me... that happy me~
yea i noe, i'm like only happy whn i'm attached... bt i want to change that, i want to be independent... yet its so tough... i dunnoe if i'm like despo or whatsoever, wait no, i'm nt despo... i've learnt to take control of my feelings and figure that out before putting another step forward... i'm it slow now~ I shall nt rush again like last yr... however whn i slow down, sm1 will keep up wif me, and that's whn i start to rush again~ i'm really confused..
well, things ain't goin anywhere, perhaps i shld juz go and sleep... just give me more time, i dun want to lose the race again~ i see smth in you, that i've been looking out for... i juz hope it goes the same way for you, sooner or later~ bt i wonder, what's the probability?

The Sky and I

2007-05-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

hmms, let me recap what happened aft my last post so far... i've kind of forgotten... let's c, the main happiest point is, I'VE GT A PSP ALRDY!!!! hahahas, bt yea, have to pay 140 to my dad by installment~ no more boring journey back hm... yups and there's one day we went vivo to eat at the thaiexpress or smth~ 4get what date though, i've bad memory... todae aft sch went out wif xinyi and khalis... got a belt, wanted to get my slipper, bt they do nt haf the size... shall check out other places... tired tired, friday is approaching thn finally can rest~~ so sleepy, the weather nowadays is rather gd for sleeping, bt we have to drag our bodies around... juz wish i can transform into a baby and get pushed in the pram to dover, thn *poof* change back to myself... smtimes look at babies sitting in the pram wif the fan blowing at thm and their toys overhead, pillow and boaster beside thm, sleeping so soundly whn we're walking~ okok back to topic, on my way back frm harbour to hg, only till hg thn i saw jing han and roy~ LOL!! we're all blind... reached hm and now i'm rather tired alrdy, tml lectures day~

2007-04-26T16:48:00.000+08:00

yes, i tink i can conclude that my eyesight is indeed getting worse... nowadays in lecture its quite hard to c the words and all, aft looking at the floor and looked up while walking its quite hard to c people's face from a distance... thn end up my fren say i dao~ so yea, pardon me if i looks like i staring at people~ perhaps its time to get specs, bt i dun like specs... shall c how its goes, hopefully i dunneed to wear... sch as usual, tiring, especially wif boring lessons... i really dislike UCCD, its as gd as Social Studies...

so wed had the fire drill thing, its stupid.. aft that went vivo wif Jiexin, Jing Han, Roysten... went to catch "Wild Hogs" haahaas, its quite a nice movie, bt sm parts r a lil boring~ aft that we ate Carl's Junior, i feel so turtle, it was my first time eating it... bt its nice!! very nice~ can eat till full, and i do mean FULL~ and its cost roughly twice the price of Mac though... however, it is value for money... shortly aft tat we went hm, hahas... finally gt NEL takers~~ lesser bus trips~

ok shall stop here~ eyes startin to get blur vision.. oh one more thing, jonan is gd in ban luck or whatever it is spelt like~ beware~ we played wif foolscape acting as our bets... he won back all of it~

2007-04-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

lol, one of the funny moments in bleach... well yea its quite long ago~

hmms, tiring day todae, no idea why... perhaps the rain

2007-04-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

smtimes, pointing out mistakes is alright, bt pointing it out while making a face... its pisses me off... hmms... where's the initiative?? juz the thought of it makes my fking pissed...

oh well...

2007-04-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

ok, haven been blogging for awhile now~ let's c, lessons as usual, boring... bt i kinda like MA I lecture, although we have to sit in alternate chairs, bt his lecture is nt boring... and afterall i muz be more interested in Econs, haf to score well for it... siying is off to bintan lol, so gd... tml is the start of another week of sch, hate it, why do "offdays" pass by so quickly??

2007-04-18T19:04:00.000+08:00

came across this in my fren's blog, so yea...

Your EQ is 127

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2nd and 3rd day of sch r boring too... nothing special, boring tutorials, not-so-boring-yet-a-little-boring lectures~ well we started to talk a lil to the new classmates, erm, correction i mean them... i still haven talked to them.. anyways i still feel skinny~ sian to the max.. and nowadays not much of an appetite although i'm hungry... i'm back to 61kg, 70 seems so far, wish me luck!

2007-04-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

well, first day of sch is slack as usual... this current class is very much like my sec sch 307/408, where most classmates are frm my previous class.. we're rather sad also, coz there's nt much girls in our class... anyways this yr the modules looks alot harder... gonna work harder~ boring, gonna sleep early todae ytd slept at 4, very tired now... Also heard that our attachment will be during the end of yr2, that 2mth break... wonder where will we be sent to... ok shall stop here, feeling tired...

2007-04-16T11:35:00.000+08:00

ok so sch is starting in a few hours, few kinda bored though, another year of projects, work, and more... well no choice...

yea and thx miya for giving me to get the videos of bleach... lol, the new opening of epi 121 is nice~ carn wait for the next epi...

2007-03-28T01:26:00.000+08:00

realised that i'm starting to keep talking abt Bleach... hahahas, miya's char is using Kuchiki Rukia's hairstyle, nice~ hmms, oh well.. nth much happened... went to eat at sakae a few days back... and we caught Mr Bean's Holiday, its really a boring a not nice story... i tink its nt worth the time and money... i tink i will juz gif 2/5... crap~ lazy to upload some of the pics i took that time on the night cycling... so yea, nth much... time table is out, its is very weird... the timetable is slanted, as in i haf to go to sch earlier each day... mon 1pm, tue 11am, wed 10am, thur 9am, fri 8am... mon & tues 5pm dismiss, thur & fri 4pm, and i expect wed to be dismissed at 1pm, bt NO!! its 3pm, juz like having GEMs, crap la, and my GEMs i can only take on tues or wed morning, coz monday i wanna sleep and if i take gems at 8am~10am... thn frm 10~1pm i wld be rotting... the time table is CRAP!!

talking about bleach, i like the songs "Sakura Biyori(Cherry Blossom Weather)" by Hoshimura Mai and also "My Pace" by SunSet Swish... lol~ nice la~ lucky, gt miya, mayu and nick to help me wif the songs~ hmms played nick's bleach game on the psp, i oso feel like buying, bt firstly i haven even got my PSP... oh well

2007-03-25T17:16:00.000+08:00

Hmms, pass few days have been watching bleach and all... well, episode 119 is quite crap... bt i still love the ending song as much... Sakura Biyori, lucky miya oso gt that song...

Ytd night went night cycling wif bro... It was really tiring, my leg and butt still hurt, leg frm cycling, butt frm sitting... we cycled frm our hse to ECP, thn we cycled to the other end of ECP where there's the SAFRA chalet, the wind started getting very strong... we went for shelter as it rained shortly after... it rained really heavily, stayed under shelter for around 30~40mins... thn we cycled to 7-11 for sm food... After like around 30min~1hr rest, we set off to the other end of ECP... Cross a bridge, and we entered a very weird place, really very ghostly.. misty and all, cannot see the road clearly, like around 100meters ahead... lucky i have the charm with me all the time... whn we reached the end, we tot that it wld lead us to kallang, bt its a dead end, by that time its alrdy 1+ or 2+.... so we cycled back that spooky road and crossed the bridge, found another way to esplanade.... cycled pass and rest up awhile... thn aft like 10mins rest we cycled back home, it was a very tiring journey, especially whn it was alrdy quite late.... its a long way home, cycled frm city hall, to dhoby, and thn follower the purple line all e way back... we reached home at around 5am.. SLEEP~ and i woke up at ard 4.30pm~ LOL

2007-03-21T01:29:00.000+08:00

ok finally back, but still sian... lets c, main events... dillys bdae which was quite smtime back... lol, managed to meet up wif only a few of 205 people... bt yea... nxt~ dad brought a new bicycle for me and mum, and also himself... now awaiting my bro to buy his... thn can go night cycling and all... yea, todae went out to cycle myself... its been smtime since i cycled... frm my house cycle to punggol, took sm pics bt lazy to upload to my com... cycled to compass point... back home... cycled for around 2hrs... its been very long since i cycled, my legs are burning... lol, nvm more outing for myself... mayb nxt time can try cycle to amk... well, i'm outta here, hungry~

2007-03-10T02:16:00.001+08:00

rot rotting rotted rotten...

2007-02-18T01:02:00.000+08:00

Firstly~ HAPPY Chinese New Year TO ALL!!!
yea, a new yr a new start i guess
A key which cannot open a door never will, as it doesn't fit the lock~
so yea!! every ending is another beginning...

2007-02-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

yups there goes another vday~ boring days...

why?
how?
when?
there's alot to ask...
the message is clear enough, thanks...

2007-02-13T02:24:00.000+08:00

hmms~ yea, life is boring as usual... blah blah, nth much to say...

its almost a year, and everything just points to the same direction... well, ya I do agree but I just couldn't... especially whn I place so much faith into something..
yes I know I've been knocked down a couple of times, but perhaps thats how I've always dealt with this kind of thing... I'm always easily affected, bt just couldn't bear... be it movies, storybooks, dramas that influenced me... but thats wat I chose to believe... even whn I know it will tear it all apart instead of bringing me another step closer, i still chose it... why, i don't know why either... everynight I juz lay in my bed thinking about all e different issue I have on hand, all the things i have to deal with, the things that i wish for, the things that make me angry till i finally close my eyes after looking at the moon for god knows how long... I'm really beginning to lose myself~ I don't understand myself... ya this makes it even tougher to acheive what I've been fighting for.. but ya~
I'm really getting sick of this shit... I really want to move on already, but all the things flashes through my mind and everything just comes back again... if only life was like a game, where i can just load my "game" right before i set my eyes on my goal and placed the whole of myself into achieving it... if life could rewind and give me a second chance, I guess I would still end up the same way~ coz that's me?
Everytime when i think about all these, I can really feel my heart feeling that same familiar feeling... sour? i don't know... its as though some roller coaster or smth... fear? whatever it is, guess its yet another obstacle for me to get past...
I do wish to clear my head from all this, but no i don't especially when I've learnt so much. Learnt so much... I do... memories, struggles... dun u have the feeling to juz let it all out, shout it out, vent it on something? rem i used to play basketball to help... perhaps its running and all that helps now..
guys should be independent, strong and all... yea... bt once in a while i guess we do shut down, and thats whn we're vunerable... whn everything just come crashing down... when everything just goes the other direction... well not everything... bt most of the things... the other direction...
From things I've learnt, I don't know who to trust, looking at people's eyes we can always see it inside everyone... the impression they gives to me... bt some gives me the comfort or warmth, tranquility, peace... safety~ but its always these little things that makes me dependent, feeling insecure... and everytime, i just shrug it off, coz I'm a guy... coz I'm not supposed to feel that way... coz.... thats who i want to be, ~~coz of you..~~
I kept asking myself, kept reminding myself, am I doing things right? Remember to be that kind of person...
Directions, we have to lead our own lives~ perhaps thats how a leader should act... we're all leaders... a leader is strong, mentally too... and emotionally...
Perhaps I'm not one...
Perhaps, i'm sick of this shit... well, its another day...
that's another load off my heart~

there i go again~

For those who read, if u have comments and want to gossip about it, don't fking hell say it behind my back, if you want to comment abt it, just tell me straight... don't tell me indirectly or show me some fking face or attitude, i'm sick of u basturds... so if you still feel like gossiping thn just fk off...

2007-02-08T01:45:00.000+08:00

yea!!! no more papers hahahahas... well gonna go find work~ tml going buy my clothes... supposingly going wif shu an they all... bt yea, cancelled... so yups~ i shall go myself~ if nt ltr no size i in trouble... todae was alright bahs~ e paper is rather hard~ sianz~ aft tat went to eat sakae... lol, we walk frm city hall to raffles place~ quite fun... i haven been walking for ages~ i miss walking like this.. i tink nxt time my gf hopefully will like this too thn can go pulau ubin, or walk ard SG take pics~ lol... it may sounds dumb, bt heys i like it so who cares... nth much bah~ feeling kinda emo todae... walked pass the merlion, memories...
Figured i learnt smth from her, patience... though i nvr did get wat i hoped for last yr bt i had really learnt the value of the word patience... now i understand what that truely feels like~ nvm, we shall c wat happens in a yr or 2? oh well... we'll nvr noe... i will never noe~
feels kinda tired todae... brain don't seems to be my brain~ well i dun noe what i'm toking about now either..

signing off

2007-02-01T18:54:00.000+08:00

1 more paper to go~ pacc for todae was alright~ bt the bank recon was nt ok~ i tink out of 12 i only get 2~3 coz i nvr do the bank recon~ nt sure how~ suddendly mind blank~ bt the others is ok~ lol, hopefully can get 70+ or 80+ guess the aim of getting distinction is nt possible~ so lets juz aim for an A...

hmms nth much bah~ plain boredom... hahas, haf read thru my past posts~ realized how much i've grown~ 30cm ruler~ lol... oh well, in terms of attitude too~ used to be so kiddish~ reading my first entry alrdy says so~ look at what happened in the past~ really sounds like secondary school students.. and yea was at Mac a few days ago, saw those sec sch ah bengs, they like to tok so loud and create big actions thinkin they are cool... bt yea, from our view its disturbing and crap... my frens who used to be bengs~ oso now like dun do those kinda things le, and they find it stupid~ guess thats what happen whn we leave sec sch and move on futhur~ its amazing how people change, fren's change, drift apart~ enemies change, drift apart too, and yea.. i changed.. for the better i hoped... i'm nt sure myself~ well, we carn judge our own i guess~ who noes what people haf commented abt me~ tink aft our NS we will all be even more mature, thinkin wld nt be as pure and innocent... hahas, part of what we all have to go through~ lol, thn now see my bro and he's gf so close and all... i also kinda miss the times whn i had a gf too~ especially whn i read my past post~ yups, i wld oso haf to thank my ex for bringin joy and sweetness into my black and white life... I've learnt much from what have happened... yea, so now~ i'm juz waiting till sm1 to appear infront of me, and who is willing to take my hands~ hmms, so many things haf happened in the past year... felt that perhaps indeed i shld be like her, take a break... its alrdy 1yr of time being alone... perhaps can make it 2? lol, bt yea my new yr resolution, to have a gf by this yr... yups, lets c if it comes true... I'll just have to wait and see what will happen...

yea toking abt strange~ HOUGANG IS VERY COLD~ as in chilling... the wind is blowing i haf to wear my blazer all night while using e com~ coz i no jacket~ LOL... the world is coming to an END!!! people spend all ur money now~ or can put in my wallet if u want~ indeed our world is growing more weird~ who noes what may happen nxt...

2007-01-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

ok~ economics is over~ WOOOOOOOOO... no more GDP, no more AE, no more FISCAL POLICY~ hmms, bt actually studying econs is gd~ it helps me und more abt what the government is doing and what goes on ard~ e paper was kinda hard... in fact it is hard~ hope i can juz score 60+...

while i was on the train looking at the scenery~ was thinking thru what happened in my life for no reason~ well, smtimes tink abt it, indeed it is true that the only person u can trust is urself~ people gets more and more fake as they grow older... smtimes tink abt it, juz wish i cld stay at 15~ or 16... its the best time i guess... guess wat my mum said is very true, in the society, we cannot trust anyone bt ourselves~ smtimes, whn we comment abt smth or talked abt smth~ by looking at other's eyes, actions and reply... u cld very well understand what they mean indirectly... the meaning is clear yet indirect~ well, so its best to keep all my comments and thoughts to myself~ thats why I usually do not tok that much~ learnt frm others, its best to keep things to urself~ u'll nvr noe which basturd will go leak out the info or gossip behind ur back... yes basturds... whn i tink abt it, realised that everytime on the train, bus i wld think abt all kinds of things like this... smtimes haf the inspriation to write poems, bt yes, my vocab ain't that gd~ life have many surprises i guess... what's next? learnt to go thru every single day, clearing my emotions at night... yea sounds like deleting hp inbox~ bt ya, smtimes feelings do remain... bt whn everything is nt agreeing to the positive outcome we want~ what else can we do ya? guess i shld stop thinking abt all these, and clear memory space for pacc and stats~ i'll have plenty of time to think during holidays~
gd luck to those who r having or going to have papers too~

i'm out~

2007-01-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

CRS is OVER... no more of critical reasoning skills~ hahahas, yea yea, and its been a long time since i wrote such a long compo... one page alrdy 300+ words and I wrote 2 1/4 page... god knows how many grammar, vocab mistakes i have made... oh well... tired as usual, and i've no idea why i lost my huge appetite nowadays, haven been eating much recently... really dunnoe why, i dun wanna go more skinny~ hais~ being skinny sucks~
ok, so todae was kinda fun, the few of us went town... celeb jas bdae~ hahas, the brownie is nice!! well, took quite alot of photos and i realise how ugly I am... yea... oh well, now i und why i'm single~ hahahahahas... okok, new new yr resolution... be more handsome?? HAHAHAS... well, and as usual, lazy to post the pics although its juz like a few clicks away... bt yea... i have a big hand and its heavy~ bought a polo tee from zara, and whn i reached hm thn i realised its the same as my bro's... hahahhas, what a coincidence... gt myself a watch, hahahs 12bucks~ bt yea, its rather nice... whn i start work thn i get myself a real watch ba~ new yr clothes haven buy finish... hahas, we set the 8th of feb to go shop~ woooooo, carn wait... bt for now~ i have other things to worry about... PAPERS... shall do my best in all papers, especially pacc, dun wanna let june down... need to score, i wanna try for an A or distinction if even possible... we shall see.. hahas, lotsa tots & emotions, lazy to type~ my tiny lil mind uses nano tech to store info~ ok, off topic~ i'm out~

-Signing off,
Nigel
Cheers

2007-01-19T20:12:00.000+08:00

wooo, mob test is over... lol, it was easier thn expected... lucky i spend more emphasis on controlling... lol, and i was lucky to get Set B, heard Set A was tougher? oh well, yea its over... now shall jia yous for my econs, pacc and stats... hahahs sianz, wanted to go eat out since its last day of sch bt every1 seemed bz so yea, home... boring~ i'm out~

2007-01-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

monday greens~ lol, yea green~ chiku u see this?? hahahahs... ok, so yea everyone is very bored and tired todae... hmms, nono correction, i tink its just me... woke up 40mins ltr thnt he alarm clock... so rushed... passed my bro's gf, my bro's psp... coz he wanna play... LOL!! went to class, very lil people present... thn the usual tutorial stuff, our group only gt jas, james and me la... mob passed in a flash... had lunch, thn crs... LAST CRS LESSON... finally!! bt yea, lessons boring as usual... bt the writing of the intro part was funny.. yea, aft lesson went lab to do our IDEA proj... hahas wed is our presentation... alot of com cannot use, and we finally found one that can be used, bt no net~ crap~ almost completed alrdy... felt so bad coz my pricing part like lesser slides thn the others... volunteered to do the advertising part... felt it was right... coz the others have alot of slides alrdy so yups... went hm aft tat, took bus... sleepy... reached hm bathed, watched spongebob... hahas, thn i go and sleep... woke up at 8 for dinner, and yea... wanted to study my MOB, bt decided to study tml... tink i wanna print out the other notes first... ok, tml will be frontpage presentation, every1 is like pretty worried.. hmms i hate the weather... i prefer sun, and it keep raining... crap

2007-01-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

hahas, had fun on fri... met in the morning for IDEA proj.. lol, we didn't do much, coz its more on the research abt the financial thingy... we went for pacc tutorial, it was short followed by the lecture... aft tat we went to jp for pizza hut... hahas, haven been eating there for a long time alrdy... it was fun... chatted and ate... time flew past real fast... went for econs tutorial it was fast, no idea why... usually it takes forever for it to be over... thn we went to bugis walked ard a lil, and ate the dun noe what huo guo~ ahahas, and i feel very weird coz i eat the hot dog, fish, mushroom, chicken, crabsticks and a few others... thn the others all eat prawn and everything... LOL... thn we all gt our nicknames, or say "position"... thn my position really turn off~ hahahahas... bt nvm.. muz be honored right? LOL thn we walked ard a lil, and vans bought her formal skirt i tink... hmms, and yea... we went to clark quey... oh ya and we saw my bro on e train, hahas... wanted to seat and chill at clark quey... bt it rained cats and dogs... end up all of us was asking each other where to go... and yups, home... hahahas... msn-ed, thn go sleep... woke up at 0600 and feel very very hot... took my temp its 38.9... slep till 0830 hoping my temp will go down to 37 aft popping in 2 panadol... bt hell, its 37.9... really cannot feel my legs and my head hurts, so i told thm i couldn't make it... felt so bad... tis is the first time i didn't appear for any of my proj meetings... woke up at 1400 still feeling sucky... and the day went on... weather is bad... feeling shitty... blah blah... hahas, crapped wif ship... as in really crap... hahahahas... my bro's gf came over... hahahas, they are funny lah... once she come over... the hse is filled wif laughter... and yups, they went out alrdy... hmms, tml gonna study... todae my head really feels very weird, its nt like my head... and its heavy...

2007-01-10T21:57:00.000+08:00

yea yea, its the family pic~ hahahas... i didn't put a few coz i dun look gd in it =p... hahahahas, that time hair kinda long so abit sianz~ bt oh well...

sch todae was boring went sch to do project.. nt my day todae... on the NEL, there's this uncle i've no idea why he wanna squeeze all the way in thn end up no space thn he gt to squeeze and stand behnind me... and there's a auntie infront of me, i've no way to go... then throughout that trip, its quite tiring coz i carn move much... okok, east west line... gt nth much juz that the bangala beside me is standing quite near... went sch did project... all of thm gt one row of coms, i'm the only one seperated... and i tried the first com, crap... carn use internet... thn book another... forget to go to the loo b4 goin lecture, was endurin in lecture... lunchtime, almost spill out my water... hmms, thats about all the bad luck for the day... hmms, hold on... there's one more... 3 consectutive 74 all fully packed... so i took the third one which is a double deck... and i was pushed into the back, which is where i cannot stand straight else i would hit the ceiling... so all e way gt to like bend my head... thn the lady infront thought i wat... its hell of a ride... bt luckily, i was granted a seat shortly... and yea its those face to face seat, bt amazingly i don't feel giddy... reached hm, bathed wanted to go jogging bt its real hot and i dun wanna dehydrate, so yea... stayed at hm sleep... woke up at 9pm... blah blah... tml whole day of lectures~ crap!!

2007-01-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

monday monday monday... everyone hates monday, especially when sch juz started and everyone is feeling zombie-ish... brain dead, carn think... lol, as predicted... woke up late, at first 0600 i was awake le, bt yea, i switched it off instead of snooze... woke up at 0700... was late for like 20mins... yea, seriously feeling dead... leg is tired.. keep yawning today~ crap... well, lunch was great as usual.. coz its time for food... yea, aft lunch was every1's "favourite" lesson... CRS, with a combination of our dead brain, and the blood rushing to our stomach to carry more food or nutrients to our body... we really couldn't tink much... or put it this way, i couldn't think much... yea, 2hrs of crap~ did frontpage aft tat, went to T22 all fully bk, biz IT used com for like juz 30mins thn it ask us to book out... so walked all e way to main lib and its better there, lesser people... saw jasmine there... LOL... we left the report to complete... we left at 4 and i head back to biz IT for GEM proj... lol, it was fast as usual, discussed abt the ad and all... took bus hm, can really feel the headache and dozed off for a few minute, and the wonderful person in the seat infront keep leaning forward and lay back into the chair again in a quick motion, and as we all know, my legs are long and the knee wld be at the back of the front seat... endless knocking till amk... hahas, ok nt endless, bt kinda like often~ aft which finally gt to rest... bt the air-conditioned bus, is nt very conditioned... reach hg, eat walk back hm, bath, and fell asleep once i lay on my bed... woke up at 9pm... well, tml will be another boring day... my head is really nt feeling well, heavy~ lol, water water... shall drink more water...

hahas, ytd bro's gf went out wif our family... hahas, she's funny la~ i'm glad for my bro, they're really loving... and at night where my bro gonna book in, we sent her hm, and i tink she is feeling rather sad... my bro oso quite sad likedat~ hahas, i sit at the back of the car feel so extra...

lol, after seeing them so close, i oso wanna have a new new year resolution, find a gf~ hahas, bt yups... no rush, wait till i find a right one... oh well...

yea yea, i bought a new track shoe, now thn i know i've neutral feet thus i need cushioning shoes... hahas, yea the people there so pro... yups, like i said new shoes... it feels alot more comfy thn my DS-Trainer... well, no doubt, that shoe was for one time use, more of like sprinting... hahas, now with this shoe i won't have to suffer that pain in my heel... hahahas, sounds like advertisements... crap~

I'm outta here

2007-01-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

hmms, while writing up this entry was listening to pachebel's canon-in-d performed by he Vienna Boys choir... its nice~ in fact very nice... oh well, and its kinda soothing... close ur eyes and juz listen to every single detail, not using force to hear it, bt let the sounds goes to you... hahas, i've no idea wat i'm saying... bt yea, nice...

Lets c, Wednesday 3rd Jan did frontpage thought i wld be late, bt ya, on time... frontpage is crap and ITAB sucks... booring day...

Thursday 4th jan lol, it was muriel's bdae, HAPPY BELATED BDAE... hahas, went sch for psychology proj, lol, and i reached at 1430 bt nobody is there yet... so waited till ard 1500... started to tok abt the report and ppt... well, i've no idea, bt i juz feel weird and not myself during proj discussion... haahas, i cannot crap in there... tink they are more towards the classy people who dun really likes to crap? oh well... gem sucks... went hm shortly aft that, lotsa sec sch people, coz there's that open hse thing.. on my way down to e bus stop saw kenn, yups crapped on bus... saw marcus boarding the bus frm NP's station... it was a long and tiring ride... slacked, proj, sleep...

Friday 5th Jan, woke up and dozed off and i nvr hear the sound of the snooze anymore... guess i must have off it without thinking.. woke up at 11... get ready and all... blah blah blah, went to xinyi's hse for proj... met khalis on the bus there, bought our lunch over and ate... its been quite smtime since i last ate mac... did a lil bit on our IDEA proj, hahas, yea i can voice out my views and all in the IDEA project grp better... lol, after smtime the girls went off to get their lunch or dinner I oso dunnoe, coz its like 4~ which is it? LOL... me and khalis slacked at the com... they came back and we split the work, mj went off shortly aft tat.. the others watched e tv, lol i was wondering why can they pause the tv programme, thn i learnt that they were watching vcd, great how stupid of me... khal and I went off coz there's nth much we cld do there, so went hm... on the train there's this guy sleepin beside me... and now i'm gonna elaborate on why i hate sleeping on train... coz the head will haf no control and will slide off to the side... and thats wat happen that guy slide off towards my side so i gt to like lean forward hoping that he wld wake up soon aft he realise he is off balance, and yea he did... so he slide the other side... thats gd, and i have peace throughout... NE line is crowded as usual, peak hour, what else.. took to harbour and back~ slept on train... proj, movie, sleep...

Saturday 6th jan, woke up at 3pm and still feeling real zombie like... and i'm still feeling like shit now, tired tired tired... hmms, one more day and sch will be starting... shortly after would be all the presentations, study week, exams... and we will bid farewell to our current class, hmms nt much happened to me i guess... yr2 here we come... during feb i'm gonna work, bt the qns is "as what?".. i have one mth to think and get myself some lobangs~ LOL... i'm nt going back to R.C Robinsons even if i die... worst case scenerio, i wld rather go Centerpoint's Robinsons... at least the youths there are much more happening... haven buy my CNY clothes... booring... hmms, i wonder whn will the FOP people call me? hahas, fang gonna come to sp, and most prob accountancy or Banking and financial services... and hopefully i would be the facilitator for her class... *evillaugh*... great... off to my orea cookies... they are waving at me hinting me to eat em~ lucky i have sm milk in the fridge... FOOD!!!

2007-01-05T01:48:00.000+08:00

Dillys Teo HuiJie Aka cow aka chiku asked me to blog... bt i nth to blog so ya~ LOL!!! bb

this i better thn the one below

2007-01-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

lol, ok i'm quite late, bt yea... happy new yr~ hahahahas, ok so lets put 2006 behind, bt we still gt projects frm 2006~ crap... okok so tml gonna meet for frontpage thingy, thurs meeting for GEM, fri for IDEA... woooo, its real packed...

2006-12-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

LOL, the effects of the G Force... i guess

raining everyday... so cold~ lol, boring days i guess... that nxt holiday i seriously need to work or i will be rotting like this~

2006-12-27T00:57:00.000+08:00

Yea its kinda old though

rotten weeks ,rotten days, rotten hours, rotten minutes, rotten seconds... sianz projects and work... aft this holiday sch for a few weeks thn exam... holiday for 9weeks where i will be working and it will be yr2 alrdy... time flies... looked at the sec sch pics we taken, time really flies... in sec1 i looked very very kiddy~ LOL... and that guy who stands beside me is a fker... we all hate him... i tink he shld be awaiting he's O level results now... due to that problem he skipped sch one yr... hahahhas, stupid idiot... boooring.... soon yr3, thn NS thn all the working life~ wonder what my frens wld be working as in the future... perhaps nxt time my child's teacher is my current fren... LOL!! Singapore is small, what could i say~

2006-12-22T00:33:00.000+08:00

morning, night, morning, night, morning, night, hmms, its thursday of e 3weeks break... gonna start studying soon...been sleeping late and waking up ard 1pm... so nice~ no need wake up at 5.50am and all... todae was the usual crap~ sat gonna go seoul~~~ garden... LOL, hmms... now having a packet of oreo cookies infront of me... nice~ so long nvr eat it le... miss the taste so bought it while i was at e supermarket... feeling so slack, shall go jogging soon... need to get new running shoes le, my current one cushion like no cushion... kinda pain at times... and i still can feel the dampness in the air, guess tml will rain~ why does it rain so much now, monsoon season?? boring.... i prefer sun, coz thn my nose would nt be blocked!!! crap crap crap~ i'm out...

2006-12-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

RAIN RAIN RAIN, everday rain... makes me even more sleepy~ hmms guess the greens muz be happy to have so much water... hmms lets c, ytd went to take family photo at the studio in suntec... hahas, it was the first time that i got to put make up sia... that person help put dun noe wat oso, thn oso sm lip balm or smth, end up like so dry... and there was this family also taking pic, really attitude sia... like wanna act those rich high class people or smth... wth, we juz sit there read magazines thn whn they enter, the mother like tilt her head up and roll down her eyes to look at us, thinking that she is sm big shot... if i were to stand up, c if she can look at me likedat nt, idiot... walk ard oso muz act one kind... i wonder why do these people have to be like this, if u were rich thn perhaps being humble people will like and respect u more... do u c those big shots acting like this? LOL, and the thing is, she gt a belly~ WAHAHAAHAHAHAH!!! and my mummy looks ALOT better thn her la... my mum that day gt hair do and make up pretty wor... hahas... so aft taking pic we went to citylink coz bro wanna get smth... and thn we were off to changi airport to eat the ramen~ HAHAHAS... had mushroom miso curry ramen or smth, 4gotten e name le... kinda nice, and nt to forget the TAKOYAKI~ yummy~ bt the bad news is, i'm having blocked nose... dad bought candy for us all, and as usual, i won't be shy with the pickings... hahas, i took quite alot and yes, i finished it in one day~ LOL!!!! i luv candies... bt yea, thats once in awhile, haven't been eating candies for quite sometime alrdy~
As for todae, its whole day of slacking... its real booooooooooooring.... oh yea, any1 noe where to get those nursery rythmes CD or smth?? i wanna get it, miss all my nursery rythmes... have only a few in my PC...

Assumptions are true at times
For one to pick up
we must learn to let go
The world is harsh
Watch your back

2006-12-17T20:36:00.000+08:00

tired~ no more mood to blog todae~

2006-12-16T01:33:00.000+08:00

let's c... thurs was crap... lecture and more lecture... and yups, lol juz realised gt an eye candy in the lecture hall wors... oh well... thurs passed in a flash... fri was tiring, went sch for juz 1hr lecture thn went hm prepare to go bishan... went to eat steamboat wif my maple guild frenz... hahas, joked and crapped alot... very funny lahs... thn we played pool oso... went hm~ tiring...

~~things aren't the same like what we've said, i juz wish we are like the past...~~

2006-12-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

as predicted ITAB is the same, boring and cold~ hmms, frontpage gt a project~ hmms aft ITAB, ate lunch and we went to discuss on the MOB report thingy... and shu an's camera is fun lahs... wish i haf a camera likedat bt digital... hmms bt tat will be very bulky... okok, i juz want a camera... during the 2mth holiday i gonna work and buy myself a Sony Cybershot T10, i guess~ ever since i gt my k750i last year, or izzit this year?? i started to like photography, its nice... it kinda help express our feelings with the photos we take and all... something like our personality~ ok enuff abt that... let's c, we went to that mobily or smth, dun noe how to spell... hahas played pool wif khalis... realise that the cue is kinda weird, and hollow? LOL and the ball oso sucks, the table is nt straight... ball roll can like roll straight thn move to the right~ crappy... todae, which is a wed, felt restless whn i woke up, very very tired... dragged myself to school, IDEA was kinda dumb only a few people came... and we gt to do a business proposal and another ppt again~ this holiday isn't much of an holidays~ went to eat, crapped a lil thn followed by econs lecture... i really felt like sleeping, bt i wanted to listen and score for my econs... pacc was alright i guess, tired once again~ aft sch did our MOB report... although we had seperated the work, bt whn we combine tgt it was kind of weird, so end up we redo... hahas, its like for the first time we do project for so long and nt feeling pissed abt it... perhaps is coz MOB?? imagine if it was FOM... did for like a few hrs... went lib to wait for kae hua and jeremy to rep my msg, it took like quite smtime thn they say they in bishan le... while was walking to e mrt, felt kinda sick so decided to go hm instead... now i got to do that stupid ppt crap... fri is approaching~ oh yes, and while we were doing our MOB report, there's this weird guy beside us, thn keep looking at my grp members... lucky i'm a guy~ LOL, i dun haf to worry... we were like kinda joking abt him and all~ oh well, who ask him to act so suspiciously and foxily? HAHAHAHAHAS!!! hmms, gt lotsa things to blog, bt yups...

2006-12-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

Sat and Sun was spent slacking... hmms, sch was as usual boring todae... time passes rather slow... and i'm sort of feeling myself getting into the holiday mood already~ Early in the morning take train my stomach keep growling... so xia suay, bt luckily i haf my MP3 and thn pretend to sleep... afterall i feel really sleepy... hmms, went MOB, it was the usual tutorial... but halfway our cute mob teacher let us haf a break, and allow me to go down and get sm food~ she is so nice lahs~ aft tat went to had my lunch i carn finish the food, dunnoe why i dun really haf e mood to eat... as usual CRS is CRAP... boring... aloy and jonan's presentation was gd lahs... and as usual, that mojo jojo guy was there to shoot qns at thm... and thx to shaun who ended the problem... hahahas... it was cool lahs... like the whole class against him... went hm aft tat, was asking myself if i shld take bus or train as i'm tired... bt end up decided on MRT... i hate uncles and aunties, ah peks and ah mas, who dun let people alight first, once the door open they rush in like sm kiasu people rushing for free gifts, as if the door going to crush thm if they are 3secs late... shld carry the parang ard like in the army they use that to clear the bush... oh my~ thn there will be lotsa blood and limbs everywhere... hmms, mayb we shld juz use batons... thn there are oso those overseas workers... rush rush rush... booooooo~ okok, reached hm copied e songs frm my harddisk to my lap... aft tat dozed off... whole day dun feel like myself... yawnz... tml hafin ITAB and Stats Tutorial... its going to be a crappy day... looking forward to friday!!!

2006-12-08T19:10:00.000+08:00

The second time, now i dunnoe if i still gt the faith in myself to carry on... Shall just let life go on, and let fate decide instead of tryig to change it... Sometimes it is good to be pessimistic too... Coz in the end, u won't be that hurt... I think i felt numb, both in my heart and my mind... well, its part and parcel right? hmms, i guess so... the things we wish for badly always end up nt being ours... santa, please gif me smthing else for christmas~

sch was boring... i guess~

You're My Sunshine
My Only Sunshine
please don't take my Sunshine away...

it left instead

2006-12-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

okok, so its been quite tiring... dunnoe why, i tink might be the weather again... feels sleepy almost everyday~ well, watched superstar on wed and todae nt very nice bahs, guess the theme kinda boring? sch was usual... todae didn't managed to wake up on time, coz aft snooze till no more alarm thn i lai chuang~ end up wake up at 0800 so, dillydally, not DILLYS-DALLY... LOL, reached sch by 0930, went 7-11 buy a drink a cough syrup~ hahahahas, oh well... reached SB thn waited outside the lecture hall, thn khalis came and thn shaun... all missed econs~ oh ya signed up for the facilitator thingy le... hope they wld call me lahs~ i wanna be facilitators... read frm e list of names, so far like only gt aileen, fatimah, vanessa, lisi and I signed up... nvm, looking forward to the person's call!!! hmms alpha challenge todae was kinda fun bahs~ and i'm lucky to bring an extra shirt... we played mohawk walk instead of the team challenge thingy... hahas, it rained b4 tat so end up, our jeans and sneakers were all splattered wif mud... it was quite fun, juz that i kept worrying abt my hands oso~ and i was raining... and I LIKE MY MOB TEACHER, she is very funny and cute lahs... hmms, wasted she nvr took pictures wif us... i tink in my poly life so far, the two best tutor i haf is her and june lin~

hmms, playing all this reminds me of camp FEAST and camp pinnacle... camp feast was whn i first entered NCC, forgotten if its sec1 or 2... met new frens, bt we sort of forgotten each other... thn camp pinnacle, i met one of my fren frm guangyang who is the same platoon as me in camp FEAST and Senior Spec Course... remembered sec1 whn we tried archery i dun really haf the strength to pull e arrow back and hold it there to take aim... bt during camp pinnacle, it was ez~ i miss my camp pinnacle, mt ophir and senior spec course frens badly~ from the way we joked as we climbed the mountain and eat the same old shitty set meal in camp pinnacle, to how we were being punished and scolded in the Mohawk 7 platoon to become leaders... the discipline, motivation, and of course unity... Oh YA!!! there's this guy who keep telling us do sm stupid beatboxing while marching, at first it was cool, bt slowly most of us were sick of it, and he is still bossing us ard and attitude... aft the camp was the funniest shit, the few of us were imitating that guy, "come'on let's beat box", "bloody hell you, do it better lah, dun screw it", "I'm Staff SGT ***** u better listen to me" hahax, i rem his name bt of course i carn write it down... and yes, we're all Staff Segeants back thn... his sch is weird, the CSM is kinda gay, and the ASM was the one who commanded the CSM...

hahas, a simple team building game can lead me to think back to all this... hahas, its fun... I miss playing bball too~ hmms, aft the alpha challenge thing, it was rather cool that majority of us nvr go for MOB lecture... went to play pool wif aloy they all, hahas, i screwed myself real gd there... really very bad... and i realise the table is very smooth... nt like kpool in amk and the bishan de... oh well, i'm rather tired now le... i'm outta here~
Three Simple Words, One Simple Wish

You're My Sunshine,
I Wish The Clouds Will Never Come~

2006-12-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid... I'm really worried... what could I do?? god save me... i'm really confused... I hope the past won't repeat again... Black and White... I've fallen too deep, i guess? I'm lost once again... A moment of joy, now a moment of saddness... The princess always goes with the prince nvr a commoner? I wish for a fairytale, bt it nvr exists...

2006-12-05T20:03:00.000+08:00

Your eyes shows all... I guess I understand~

hmms, same old shit, boring~ morning was trying on sm shirt in my closet sm is nice bt i cannot wear coz i'm skinny!! damn lah, i hate being skinny... ITAB was boring, lunch was alright... crapped... Stats is boring too~ boring day indeed... lets c, it is only tues and i'm kinda tired alrdy~ during lunch dunnoe y suddendly will cough... nobody ard me is coughing either... its juz one after another... diarrhoea a few days back, cold with fever last week, and now cough... mayb nxt week wld be sm stupid crap... boy, this sucks indeed... i wonder why? hmmms~

2006-12-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

LOL, our class pic~ we are the 19 qiang(2)...

wooo, haven been blogging for quite smtime liao~ lets c projects projects, present present... FINALLY!!! ITS OVER!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ okok, i tink left IDEA CA4...
hmms, todae's presentation kinda bad for me~ dun noe why oso... oh well~ hahas, i'm falling in love wif old chang kee le... nowadays keep buying it... I'm lucky there's old chang kee in Hougang Central~ wahahahahahaha... hmms, while walking home the sun was great its been a long time since i last felt the heat beating on my skin... feels great... i miss bball~ sianzation... ever since entered poly like so slack le... oh well... nth much happened nowadays i guess... low on budget too~ thurs is our experential learing programme... tink it might be fun~ bt we've to wear helmets!! oh well... oh ya, todae so CRS at a diff class, that class gt stage and mic... so whn others haven reach khalis and I was up there acting like sm superstar, bt crappy we sang "stand up for singapore"... bt so fun lahs... smtimes imagine what if i'm a superstar... bt oh well, i carn sing oso!! LOL...

2006-11-27T18:12:00.000+08:00

friday went airport aft sch... crap and makan~ LOL!!!
hmms, ytd went shoppign wif family~ bought myself a levis jeans and a blazer frm ebase... very long nvr buy stuff liao~ i oso carn wait for 17th dec, we gonna take family pic at that suntec shop... woooooo~ hmms, so aft shopping we went to jog at East Coast, it was crowded like dun noe wat~ and i really dun noe why i run 2.5km tired le, the macdonalds feel like flying out of my tummy and i feel very sleepy coz i slept at 4am and woke up at 8am... 4hrs~ LOL!! so sat awhile thn run back... feel so slack~ gee... hmms, todae sch was alright bahs, lol crap alot i guess... haha, especially at canteen, its was funny lahs~ i haven't been crapping for a long time le... hmms, MOB was alright... the usual, bt yea i luv MOB alot more thn FOM... CRS was boring as usual... we gt presentation nxt week and we doing on smoking~ aft we settle le, we was crapping abt all hairstyles and hair type... funny lahs, thn rem last time i center parting... so cool lahs~ aloy oso center parting de sia, funny!! guess lotsa guys last time center parting... oh ya, todae go sch wear shirt thn my friends say i wear until very formal... bt i luv shirts!! hahahax... aft sch did IDEA project thn went hm... aft we exit the BizIT lab wif thn it rained... so unfair... nvm reached hm shortly aft tat... leg tired~ todae whole day my leg feels weird... tml ITAB again~ boooring...

2006-11-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

~~Flowers blossom in spring, yet it is a never-ending winter... Awhile more, i hope... bt y the distance? I'm afraid. I'm lost for words. Give me strength...~~

"it is a never-ending winter"

2006-11-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

69 for econs, how great? i was hoping for smthing better~ 84 for stats, happy enuff, bt its 15%...

Sick and tired... Why? Neither do i...

Signing off,
Nigel

2006-11-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

well, papers ended, sch starts again... feels kinda weird, coz is like aft papers le thn muz get back to study again.. oh well... nth much, as usual... hmms, its pretty cold nowadays...

2006-11-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

My msn is having some stupid problem, i talk to people they oso cannot c... SIANZ!!!!

2006-11-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

One more paper to go... MOB... haha gonna go and memorise the different things... quite alot... worried i 4get the definations... hmms, so the PACC paper was quite alright... the first 2 qns hope i can score well, as for the last gt a lil trouble in balancing... aft paper we did the IDEA mindmap, and yups went hm as usual... no life~ haha, and i met wei an on the bus lahs~ just my luck~ reached hm, read my new storybook... hahas, yups i bought a new storybook which is nt very new to quite some people. The five people you meet in heaven that was introduced by Muriel last time, bt i always forget or say lazy to go and get it... But yes, i bought it the day before yesterday... Wrapped e book up as usual, i prefer wrapping up my storybooks, more neat... Read almost half of the book in one day, guess if i haf the time tml... would try to finish reading it... it is a very nice book indeed, like most book, the starting will be a little boring, bt the story is great... its pretty touching too... Watched princess hours, expected today's episode to be quite nice, bt it was alright only bah... last 5episodes!!! hahax, now left 4 more... watched superstar oso... yea yea, the ones i like got in... tml is the guys turn... tiring day todae although no programmes, perhaps it is the rain? hahas, took bus hm like i said... whn it reached MacRitchie, it started to rain heavily... thn remembered my first sec cross country run.. we ran in the rain... its very nice, just that its pretty heavy~ hahax... miss the days, in my sec sch life... i only ran twice if i'm nt wrong... thn one year we had amazing race at sentosa and the other year i 4get why dun haf~ OH YA NDP... hahax... mayb smday shld go there run... thinking abt the trees and all todae go sch in the morning heard the familiar sound of the wilderness, dun noe what is the creature creating that sound, bt i miss the wilderness oso... wonder why... i miss pulau ubin, bt yups... none of my friends like going those places to cycle... wonder why... guess most people are into going town to shop, walk, watch movie, chill... oh well~ boring days like i mentioned, lol...

2006-11-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

6 letters- B-O-R-I-N-G ... papers papers papers... so its the mst week, econs paper is over le, it was easier thn expected... lol topic 14 didn't even come out, i study that topic till i almost go crazy, coz i having a tough time understanding it... tml is stats and ITAB... gogogo~ lol reached hm after paper study awhile fell asleep... coz it was after the rain and boy the weather is gd for taking a nap... tml muz watch chnl U goong le, that episode like quite nice... oh well, i'm off to study ITAB... i mean practice... after this week thn can relax more le!!! Peace people~

2006-11-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

I hereby declare that i complete my E-Learning... Woohoooooooooo~ lol so happy lahs, finally can focus on my MST le... gonna mug hard... lets c, nowadays juz stay at hm lohs... ya todae went to buy food walked past holy innocent high school, hahas c sm of the NCC cadets in their uniform... they juz started NCC last yr i guess... coz i rem my senior spec course is with a sec2 cadet from holy innocent... i saw him quite a few time bt think he dun rem who i'm oso lahs... nvm, nxt time wear my SSC shirt... hahahax!!! oh well, boring days again... wat to do? need to study~ lol

2006-11-04T14:39:00.000+08:00

firstly~ i muz thank siying for the disc, now i dun need go back sch to use access liaos~ hahax and also for the cooling herbal tea~ thx lots!!
fri sch was boring, as usual... had pacc lecture, thn i went to the stadium there to do my work... so nice~ quiet, nt much people, and oso windy~ halfway it rained, bt glad i was under shelter... those playin soccer rushed up... lol, i frm 1pm sit there till 2.45pm... finished my work like at 2.30pm thn saw people playin volleyball, they were kinda like juz started to play, so not very gd... thn there r these quite pro guys go and challenge thm, thrash thm~ pro go and challenge beginners~ went econs class and aft tat met siying first coz she passing me e items~ thn went to find dad and mum coz they fetching me hm, bt we went to fetch my bro first~ went hm use com awhile, sleep~ todae woke up at 1+ hahax, went to eat wif bro coz dad went for the osim triathlon and my mum acc my dad there~ and yes, HAPPY 22nd ANNIVERSARY TO MY MUMMY AND DADDY!!!!!!!!! lol, tian mi mi, ni siao de tian mi mi~ oh my~
yups so was eating~ and my bro went out aft that so i came hm, went 7-11 buy smthings and saw that girl again... hahax, this time she nt wearing the flower earrings le, bt she still veyr funny~ LOL... went hm and now~ i feel like sleeping again~

2006-11-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, i muz say srry to miss niu niu, coz ytd i wrote as if it is her fault for making me nt und ppt, bt is my own fault coz i prefer chatting wif niu niu aka dillySSSSSSSSSSSSSS... wahahaha, nt dilly~
ok so todae was crap again, everyday is crap, i'm crap... went sch early coz gt presentation so dun wanna be late.. e presentation was alright... aft IDEA went to eat thn go lib do PACC, thn dun noe why suddenly caught a cold, sneeze like crazy... at pacc class even worst... used up some tissue papers... hahax, i'm destroying trees~ srry trees~ everytime muz reload my bag wif tissues... todae feel very horrible, my legs feels numb, hard to stand, slight fever so kinda alright, thn feel like vommiting, stomache, headache... went for GEMs nt feeling any better~ crapped wif shyanne, hahax finally found sm1 in GEMs class whom i can crap wif... i go GEMs normally like loner likedat keep quiet... guess quite used to being a loner~ hahax, after GEMs went to biz IT wait for kh and jeremy coz wanted to play pool, bt they doing sm work so i sleep from 3.15 all e way to 4 thn suddendly gt a call, hahax... sleep till too gd, smmore its raining and my head is very heavy... on wed, the lib is very empty and peaceful~ kh said they gt interview juz now so met thm outside at e lift, thn we go to e bus stop and i decided i dun want to go coz really carn take it, dun feel well... so went hm, crap on e bus... reached hm realised my mum oso same thing... so decided to order mac... can u believe i ate two meals myself~ hahax... bt y m i still so skinny? crap~ tml gonna be a long day hope i recover tml le... sianz

CRAP

2006-10-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

yawnz... lets c, todae was another crappy day... lucky my mum woke me up or i wld have been late for class... todae's train was especially packed... lotsa people going to sentosa... i miss sentosa... people wif volleyballs, beach wear, slippers, ready to enjoy wif their friends... lol, miss the sun, sand and the sea... hahax, so went for ITAB lesson, did Microsoft Access revision, sianz lohs, my hse dun haf access so i guess during elearning i wld haf to go back sch to do... one word, dumb... hmms, we oso did powerpoint... hahax, kinda lost myself on e steps coz was chatting on msn wif cow... hahax... 2hrs break... ate the same thing bt todae gt one more xtra food... total 4bucks... wahaha, i luv e food lahs... bt y carn i grow fat? everyday eat so much cheese, eggs, potatoes... whoever can help grant my wish of hitting the 75kg mark, pls kindly help~ went to edit sm of the IDEA ppt wif my grp... thn practice a little... tml, will be our presentation... hope i won't say my famous word "yup", seems like every1 have already taken note of that... it means i really did say alot of YUPs... Note to self: Nigel, dun say yup... hmmms, went for stats... learn quite alot of things.. guess i will be better prepared for my upcoming test which is 2weeks ltr... hahax, i wanna score... target for PACC is to get A, stats hopefully a B, Econs a B, ITAB a B oso, and another A for MOB... so life have been pretty much the same things... wake up, catch a cold, go to sch, study wif tissue papers loaded in my pockets, eat, go hm, hmwk, msn, sleep... crap~ hahax, and yes muz thank Muriel for the song... very nice lahs~ although i dun noe e singer... think shld be korean... hahax, wat to say... whn it comes to korean, Muriel is best in it... LOL...

hmms so its the 181st and i decided to juz let it go... guess i'm juz holding on too tight... juz wanna forget everything and move on... well, felt that sm misery had been lifted aft making my decision... hope its the best alternative decision i made... hmms, well once the decision is made, nvr look back bt plan ahead... thats what they say~

And so the winter fades;
into the mysterious shade...

2006-10-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

rubbish

2006-10-30T21:32:00.000+08:00

hahax, its been 5days since i last blog... wanted to make it a week... bt since nth to do now, so juz crap~ lets c, nth much happend~ sat slacked at hm, slept at 4am thn wake up at 5am coz my mum gt the great eastern run thn we go support her... hahax... 10km worhs~ thn i saw yanyi at the event oso she running 10km, power~ rugby player smmore... hmms, oh ya my bro oso bought for me a patrick keychain in the form of those lego toys... so nice lahs~ hahax, thx bro~ todae lessons were crap... MOB did abt the group thingy... I presented, finally no more "yup"... bt in CRS dun noe y i start to like stumble alot... thn start to say "yup" again, hahax like i said crap~ boring days, wif lots of thinking~ todae took bus again~ and it rained again~ so nice coz i won't haf to walk in the rain... coz if i take train whn reach hougang muz walk in e rain... thn the rain got heavier, think back sec sch we played bball in the heavy rain... so fun, coz is like all dun care drenched thn drenched... take off shoes play oso gt... smmore very slippery so u c we run like very weird... every once in a while sm1 will fall on their butt, and coz the ball we used is the leather de, bt the first coating already dropped so whn we bounce e ball on e wet ground, it will travel at an amazing speed as it bounces of the ground, so if u dun catch, the pain will find u~ hahax!! i miss the days lahs~ so funny... play till the DM come and find us... aft he go we continue... LOL, i luv playing in the rain (provided i gt extra set of clean clothes) especially the heavy rain... feel so happy and like nothing troubles me in the world for that very moment... lol, it was a few weeks b4 O levels so u c how much fun we had... the laughters~ all the vulgarities... WAHAHAHAHAHA... oh well, now i dun dare play in SP, gt a feeling that those who play are like pros there... hmms, tml gonna haf ITAB, boring~ nth much to blog alrdy... may everyone have fun and laughter, peace and joy~ CHEERS

2006-10-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

todae read more abt the fifth temperaments, realised it very much like myself... Supines... sounds weird...

hmms boring days once more... sun went east coast to jog wif my family again... hahax, finally can complete 8km without walking le... so happy... wanna aim higher, now i like running more and more le... mon was boring, tues rot at hm, todae gt GEMs presentation... and i stumbled quite alot, wonder y oso... lol the other grp did a skit, it was rather funny... hmms so went hm after tat since jeremy and kh gt sm dun noe wat thing and can only go play pool at 5pm... took bus once again... hahax i dun noe why bt i like taking bus home... usually on the bus i can haf a seat... i'm old, wat can i say... well, on the bus can actually reflect on lots of stuff... indeed it is quite alot... guess coz i'm at ease... gt a seat, peaceful(coz i haf my mp3 with me), scenery to look at... hahax, there's quite a few places in SG that are actually nice bt juz that its nt that accessible... hmms, mother nature have many great wonders... just that we haven't seen it yet... it rained, i mean drizzled... watching the raindrops hitting onto the leaves of the trees, the many droplets flying down frm e sky... people hiding under shelters... hahax, i juz can't stop keeping myself in deep thoughts... its good to once in awhile sit down and think, ask ourselves questions... if we juz go through every single day and accept everything in life, won't it be kind of meaningless? hahax, bt yups guess smtimes getting too deep in thoughts ain't that gd - well, i do noe y... bt yups, i juz couldn't stop...

sometimes, when we want something so badly and go after it bt came to realise that it might not be possible... it might hurt, bt yes... life taught us determination... yet smtimes even wif that value, it still won't be possible... the more u go after it, the furthur it goes, the distance grows larger... we are just left with one last thing to lean on... fate... well, i guess good things don't come easy... let's just wait and see~ I just can't keep wondering, ............?

Signing Off,
Nigel
and so it goes...

2006-10-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

maybe our path will never cross... maybe fate doesn't wants us to be? maybe-s... its nt confirmed... i hope its nt...

well, a gd night rest sure helped a lil... woke up feeling fresh todae... ytd was really too deep in thoughts i guess, afterall have been feeling stressed and all... juz need to blast my emotions... haze makes us tired....

I luv autumn

nice

looks like a UFO at the background

2006-10-19T20:42:00.000+08:00

hmms, woke up went sch, study, go hm... that abt sums it all up... sch was crap, haze was gd and bad... I'm starting to like MOB more i guess, its alot more fun the FOM. The haze makes us looks as if we're in fairytale world... bt haze makes the weather very hot and humid... the price to pay for having a wonderful scenery whn we wake up each day? i'm tired... entries are getting shorter each day...
seriously, i hate my hand like every1 of u who hates my hand... bt man, u tink i cld juz control it whn to sweat whn nt to sweat? my palms are nt like the type u people haf... please, ur noe it sucks to have sm1 showing u a disgusted face whn u told thm u gt sweaty palms, or whn u shake hands people shout out "EEEEEeeee WHY SO WET, YUCKS!!" DAMN... on train or buses, i dare nt hold on to the railing or the handles, coz whn i shift to another, the nxt person who hold the railing will stare at me and send an unspoken message "wtf is this"... last time in NCC, we did push ups on the floor and my hands will keep slipping, the sergeant will tell whoever that moves to do xtra and i'm always the one who get the shit... its hard for me to grip on to things, for example if there's a competition like tug-o-war, i will get condemmed... well, people laugh, mock, scold me abt my hand, ex dun hold my hands, do they all noe it is demoralising, it really make us people wif sweaty palm feel unwanted, hated... do u guys noe that? and if ur think that is fun, thn i wish ur get this stupid shit soon and ENJOY it... and i really mean it ENJOY IT... i believe u will coz u'll be pissed...
why is life giving me such a hard time? obstacles? i had enuff of this shit... is there anything to be happy about.. life sucks, it seriously do... find joy in every single thing u do in life? bullshit... arghs, enuff of this stupid shit... perhaps i shld get a rest, and juz forget abt all this dumb situations... Wish i cld shout it all out... if there's sm kind of dummy to whack, i would gladly love to... damn, i guess a blast of anger once in a while frm many mths of bottling up is better thn to die frm it... Life is unforgiving, we just have to move on in order to get through more unforgiveness?? bahs, crap...

Greenery swaying with the gentle breeze
Birds singing tunes amongst the trees
Flowers bloom with awesome beauty
Butterflies are like beautiful chapters fluttering about...

lol, wish things were that beautiful in real life... 169days and counting... every second is worth it... if only it was that easy.. hope time will really prove me right... thats all i want... wish i met u earlier... wish, hope, wish, hope... i really do wish and hope...

"Behind our laughters lies our sorrows, hurt, tears, fear." how far do u agree with this statement?

-My life is full of shit

2006-10-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

sm crap i did

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

lol, boring days in sch i shall say... lessons, tutorials... crap... tml gonna be a long day... todae GEM was boring as usual... after that we wanted to discuss on our project bt we're like rather silent... and its kinda boring i shall say? bt i'm oso silent... really haf no idea and i doubt i cld joke in that situation... oh well, sch sucks... during talenttime, while waiting for jonan and aloy to sing, thn realised kaiyin was juz sitting beside me, very funny lahs... lol... finally get to c her in SP... i forgotten how she look like le, thn now finally rem... hahax, todae saw leeves... oso quite long nvr c her ard le... well, wat to say the world is small yet big? bb people, i'm off to bed

2006-10-16T19:37:00.000+08:00

ok so sat and sun was crap coz e com was down~ lol, pathetic computer... so lets c, sat juz rot at hm... sun woke up at 0600 coz my family goin east coast to run... lol this time the haze really gt all of us.. we cannot run as well... hahax, aft that went hm to rot once again.. its was very crappy... hmms todae mornin wake up kinda tired... so carried on sleep smmore... bt lucky manage to rush to dover at ard 0805... met shu an, mei jing and xinyi... lol, we wanted to print our research at first... bt end up the bizIT haven open so went up to class... thn we go to lap to print e research... kinda crappy bahs MOB bt i like it alot better thn FOM... hahax, had our break thn go for CRS... crs is boring as usual... need to argue abt abortion this time round... blah blah... aft lesson went to vivo... hahax, gt shu an, jaslyn, xinyi, mei jing, lisi, vanessa and khalis... well i bought a shirt... the girls spent quite smtime at forever21... amazing that they can spend so long looking ard... ate at long john although i nvr eat coz of the smell and taste... went the addidas shop played the soccer table or smth wif khalis... at first he won be by 3-0 thn i slowly catch up... till 5-3... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! aft tat was xinyi and khalis against shu an and jaslyn... lol, very funny watching thm play... i tink the shop was filled wif the screams and laughter... went hm shortly aft tat... bought sm tibits hm, hello panda biscuits and two big potato chips... ruffles sour cream and the cheedar de... yums... tiring day... tml lesson lucky nt that early... bt its very stupid to haf such a long break... lousy~~ well, lets juz say every1 hates our timetable, as its indeed crap... time to rest my eyes... hahax guess the haze makes me sleepy? oh ya, todae SG is like genting... wif all the haze, as if we r high in the clouds... indeed the scene is nice... bt its diff frm clouds, its very humid and hot... LOL, plus no wind~ well, guess everything has its beauty it just how we look at it? yawnz feel so lazy now... goodnight people...
Mr. Nigel Tan Kee Miang signing off... Cheers~!!

2006-10-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

heyx heyx~ hahax finally i'm back... tiring day i guess... i have been late for the past few days and todae i automatically woke up at ard 7am... tried to went back to sleep bt woke up 3mins aft trying... this is weird... so went to sch, at first i really believed that kenneth lee really wanted to gif us our FOM results... bt my class actually celeb, lisi's, jac's and my bdae... hahax... thx guys!! i was really speechless whn i woke up wif the brownie choco infront of me... lol, so nice of my class~ once again thankew!! in sec sch i didn't haf any cakes for bdae b4... the brownie was great... lol, its gonna be the happiest day for me for this whole sem...

ok, so aft the celeb had to go for PACC lecture, kinda crappy... tink june actually taught us the steps alrdy and she is alot alot more clear and teaches us in a fun way... and had a 2hr break aft tat, went to canteen to buy drinks and went to the lib to sleep, guess tats wat i always do on fri... thn aft awhile lisi called, thn go join thm in the canteen... LOL, crapped wif vans and lisi abt alot of crappy stuff indeed... realised i haven't been crapping for quite a long time alrdy... well, at least my crapping skills haven't drop much... hahax, i luv crapping... so we actually crap abt our CCA, sec sch life and about current life... aft tat was Econs tutorial, its kinda hard to endure thru it.. coz very tired alrdy... aft that waited for wei jie, kae hua and jeremy outside MLT12... was playin the scissors paper stone wif vans till my hand red red coz muz get whack if loose... hahax, shortly aft tat met wei jie... chatted for awhile and kh called me while jeremy called wei jie, the funny thing is whn i saw kh outside the DMS, jeremy is beside him, like wei jie is beside me... LOL... oh well, so we went pool... crapped on the bus... jesus, its a crappy day... i miss crapping... play pool oso crap... aft tat went hm lohs.. gonna sleep soon... my eyelids are weighing a few tons now... goodnight every1...

2006-10-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

hmms, well todae was quite alright bahs, tink i begin to brighten up le, hahax be more cheerful i guess... so went to sch at 0800, i tot i was late and whn i reached the class, thn i knew is 0830... lol so waited outside...hahax IDEA lesson we went down to eat coz June said that we shall put the work on the table.. and go for our break... blah blah, econs lecture haf a spotcheck and guess wat i gt caught... its stupid lohs, that guy say my hair is long at the back... dun tell me he want it he's style?? people longer thn me nvr get caught oso... crap... nvm lahs, anyways i wanna cut my hair soon oso liaos... june was amazed i gt caught oso, lol she rocks lahs... fav teacher... aft class went for GEMs, read xinyi's professional etiquette notes.. kinda interesting... guess i gonna take that GEMs nxt... so went for my GEMs, learnt abt temprements, i'm more towards melancholic type.. and of coz a lil mix of the other temprements, i doubt that any1 is a pure kind... so aft GEMs, went to Vivo city wif siying... lol didn't go pool todae... tink wed is like a specific pool day le... hmms yups vivo city, alot of shops have nt yet open bt the place is alrdy huge enuff to get lost... and the Toys R Us is the best shop i like... WAHAHAHAHAH, its fun, i wish i'm a kid still... toking abt being a kid, its true... no worries, juz happy go lucky life... at least there r no backstabbers, and they r more true... eat, sleep, study and play... haix, well we grow up to suffer... as we get older people changes, backstabbers, fakes, friends who actually hold sm weapon behind their backs... we sleep, eat, go study, play, and tryingt o figure who is the true friends we have... soon we will have work and family to tink abt as we grow older... the world is evil, life is a torture... bt every once in awhile we wld find our true best frens and go crazy... its a priviledge to haf friends, TRUE friends... ok back to vivo city topic.. hahax, yes toys r us... i luv the foam sword and the SPONGEBOB toy!!! aft tat we walked ard vivo and crap at e same time... wahhaa, aft tat went to eat, hope siying's teeth gets well soon... lol, if nt everytime cannot eat... tc arhs... and yups thx lots for e shirt... i like it alot... hahax, smmore right size worhs... LOL... tml gonna be a very long day... 9~5, hmms or izzit 9~4? coz tml the project slot... oh well... boring days... come on FRIDAY is REACHING!!! wooohooo... can rest le... now i und why those working adults look forward to fri... lol, and yes SEC sch is the BEST!! last time tot my parents r crapping, well i guess thats part of growing up... nxt time i tell my kids they will say that earn money so gd, can spend all they want, juz like wat i used to say... bahs, i think to much... lol, melancholic~ oh well, cya the blog of Mr Nigel Tan Kee Miang... may u haf a nice day~ and yes, people do tc of urself too, the haze is unstable smtimes high smtime low... and yes, enjoy life to the fullest wif best frenz ard...

2006-10-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

hahax, so sat aft eating lunch met seb, wai thien and uma at the mrt station... crap all e way to pasir ris~ damn funny lahs, all the jokes, boy i miss the times in sec sch... now poly oso carn find this kinda friends who joke like crazy~ so we went pasir ris to buy the charcoal and headed to Downtown East... found the chalet aft sm directions frm the Just-Woke-Up Dillys... hahax, once reached we go play poker, aft two match go down for bbq le... quite alright lahs... bt the sianz part is like seperate into 406 and other classes~ thn we sit one side till gt peepx come thn we change table, aft that we go fetch yihui and went arcade and oso eat at the FC... aft quite long we go back, bbq a lil thn go off le... on the train took lotsa pics~ and of coz CRAPPED! lol, it was fun lahs... i miss crapping, and ya the PSI was like 150, so high sia...
well todae juz went to eat prata... i ate 3 mushroom cheese!!! and the cheese is nt like normal cheese... the person very generous de, put alot of cheese, thn the cheese still can like drip... yummy~ oh well, tml sch again~ boring... carn my days juz be like the sec sch, non-stop crapping? life in poly sucks for the time being

2006-10-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

Yes I’m back with nth much to blog, the usual~ ok so lets c, monday was boring, MOB in the morning, tot I was late bt end up being a lil early… did crappy tutorials, and we had CRS which is even more crappy, gt to do sm reading programme… reminds me of pri sch, bt this time gt to do sm summary.. read 5 books and 1 article by week dun noe wat, bt its short, gotta go borrow e books soon… todae oso kinda boring I shall say, bt glad that I cld wake up ltr… learn the Microsoft Access thing… kinda complicated, had 2hrs break of slacking in the lib… and yes, stats lab lesson, our CA is nxt week, our tutor said its possible to score 100 and I wanna score 100.. had canoe trainin, its been ages since I went… back haf been killing me… and quite a lot of people dun believe… especially whn I enter the clubhouse… they were like “heyx where have u been”, “heyx, u new guy izzit, we nt takin in anybody”, it kinda sucks.. smmore frm their facial expressions, I can c that they dun believe… very pissed off… so nvm juz go to the usual waiting place and wait… running is alright for me, bt the chin ups and gym… LOL, I slacked a lot le, time to catch up~ chin up do 3 set my back start to become pain again, thn gym I decided to nt do the upright, military press, any thing that affects my back… so is like very sianz… bench press and biceps the weight I carry dropped ALOT, it really sucks.. frm 10 each now do 7.5, oso wanna die~ muz catch up muz catch up!!! Aft gym I knew its gonna be something, and its 150 push ups… and they do very fast, I did 20 and thn like jelly arms le… till around 50 I start to cannot do le, so every time go down is agony, bt yups no pain no gain… aft recovered arm like cannot move up~ bt its kinda gd that I went todae… dun want to be classified as quitters.. unless I’m really attatched to my sch work… i tink mayb nxt yr os 3rd yr my schedule might be very packed… well, till thn, I shall c.. tml will be a long day 0800 to 1500 without break for me… lol thx to GEMs, and yes tml I tink will be starting on the project… kinda sianz, all haf friends except me, bt lucky can tok to a few~ time to sleep soon…

Can’t wait for sat, bbq day~ hahax… and wai thien plucked out a few teeth le, hahax he gonna put braces…cool~ and yes, my bdae is reaching and my bro gt me a puma bag… like it a lot… THX BRO… hope there won’t be any slipper whack by my canoeist friends.. bt on the other hand, I dun tink they would… afterall I feel kinda outcasted… as though I dunbelong to the team~ the first 2mth of hell we went thru for nth… haix, hope time will bring me back in the team spirit… came hm and bought chips frm CHEERS, whn I was paying I tot back of the days at ROB, so decided to be more friendly thn the usual “thank you” after paying… I said “thank you, have a nice day” and aft tat I felt kinda stupid, coz its night, and I feel as though I’m the cashier… LOL, bt yups friendliness puts a smile on the opposite party… hahax… its gd to be friendly… bt smtimes, people juz show attitude and act dao.. guess it really depends… hahax… that’s abt it I guess, time to retire to bed… my arms are aching… Goodnight blog, I'll be back soon~

2006-09-28T20:31:00.000+08:00

ok so sch started... find it boring still... lessons were boring and all... GEMs started alrdy, psychology is quite boring for the introduction part, smmore first day of lesson is like every1 gt frenz thn i one person occupy the whole row, coz no fren... oh well... this whole week of sch is really really boring... ytd went to play pool, very funny... at first we took 74 to NP... and we waited donkey yrs for 52... saw Jing hang smmore... the first 52 came, and there's sm kinda shit smell, and i do mean shit... and it travelled for like ard 30meters and encountered sm prob so it stopped at the nxt bus stop and the driver told every1 to get off... guess which bus stop it was.... the one aft NP which we board the bus... hahax, and we waited so long... we can actually juz walk there... bt nvm so we waited for the next 52 which is another few yrs... thn finally came, bt the bus is kinda shaky and rough, aft reach bishan we like gt seasick... went to the same place play... hahax, very bad at first lost by 2 balls... thn 2nd match still bad oso, bt last match i won wai thien... finally, bt aft tat match i need to go... real sianz lorhs... nvm, nxt time.. bt i like the table alot more thn SPGG... SPGG's like gt those dun noe wat on the table de... ok, guess nth much to blog abt le...

2006-09-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

ok so ytd i slept at 5am, i mean todae~ and woke up at 11.40am... now very tired, tml gt sch at 8 smmore so muz wake up at 6... so spent my day with nth much to do, thn in the evening went east coast park to run... todae jog less, my leg nowadays ez to cramp le... so long i nvr go trainin... bt well manage to run ard 5km... now think back 2.4km like nth le... hahax, hmms bt now my leg kinda aching... really need to excersise more le... bt y back still pain... juz now jogging a lil pain... sianz.. nvm, tml sch start again le... shall sleep early~ ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz

AND YES, forget to say... todae aft running went to bath, and there's two guys in the ladies.. so my dad told thm that, that is a girls toilet and that if they could kindly go over to the gents... thn one of the guy start to diao us, wtf he is in the wrong diao wat diao, so me and my bro diao back lorx... my dad went to tok to the other guy, thn he said he was getting the towel frm his wife, bt damn, entering a ladies is already wrong... so he came over to the gents and uttered lotsa crap abt my family and I in tamil, geez, if u wanna come and crap speak in english lahs, i hate this kinda people, scold in english lahs... thn the guy keep diao, wth... want bring this case up i dun mind... who is gonna win the case afterall? thn he go tell his wife, she said "go FU*K them"... wtf sia.... spoil mood... adult le still act like sm ah beng, unresonable people... forget it... i shall go and sleep now~ fatigue

2006-09-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

well, had been asking ard finding who is psychology, bt none of my frenz are... tink the first lesson gonna be loner... hope no ice breakers oso, i hate ice breaking~ hmms, mon starting sch le, so fast... np till 15oct lohx, unfair treatment... bahs, nvm... so todae went to play pool wif wai thien, kae hua and jeremy... lol, met wai thien at amk mrt thn we crap our way to bishan... lol, reached jeremy's hse kae hua said jermey juz woke up nt long ago~ thn we went to play pool... kinda fun lahs, i'm the most noob there sia, smmore todae carn slice the ball in, angel nt correct and all... dun noe y, practically, i sucked... thn we still play push up, lose 10 push ups, white ball go in 5 push ups, whn lose every single ball u have on table 5 push ups... hahax... after 3hrs likedat we go play bball, i rusty le... i carn hang long, carn run much, thn nt that flexible le... last time sec sch can like jump high, can hang, thn can play dun noe how many match thn no breathe... i'm getting weaker... and i injured my back again, previously is left back, now is right back... i'm old~ crap, hope by sun ok, goin for a run wif my family...

A plank

2006-09-20T16:15:00.000+08:00

hahax, registered for my GEMs le... took psychology and counselling... bt like none of my frenz in there, first lesson gonna be lonely... hmms, mon sch reopen le... quite boring, timetable packed like crazy... hmms, this friday might be goin to play pool... very long nvr play le~ muz challenge wai thien... heard his skills power~ i sure get thrashed le...

2006-09-18T11:44:00.000+08:00

woooo, my blog almost rotted for a whole 20days, bt decided to blog on the 18th... hahax, ok... so basically, i'm still rotting at hm... bro's bdae passed... Once again shall wish u a happy belated bdae... nxt, i gt my laptop le, they gonna deliver it here todae... hmms, and thats abt it... like i said, rotting~ ltr gonna register for my GEMs hope can really get into psychology... wish me luck~ oh well... and yes, my hp is going crazy, smtimes will auto restart... dun noe y oso, weird... sch's abt to start in juz a few more days... and the timetable seems packed... no more long breaks... well, there's going to be a chalet during 4get which date... bt its like most of my pals not going... always the same old shit... whn people organise thing, very ON... whn settled, thn will say "oh, i nt confirm, mayb nt going...", thats why i'm nt gonna organise any outing or wat wif thm, its always the same shit... so kh, say mayb will call us out for pool, lets c who end up going... why do i haf this kinda BUDDIES... once leave sec sch become like this... enuff of crap... time to carry on rotting...

2006-08-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

well, a supposingly wonderful day turns out to be bad... first met at amk mrt, sm go str8 to sch sm late.. so end up we go ourselves... rained heavily, so was drenched... aft the concert chatted wif the teachers and all... hahax, kinda alright for that... aft that went to play pool... kinda fun, realise my skills improve le... bt still nt very gd... hahax... chat wif kh abt smthings... thn aft tat all of us go eat, thn go hm... sianz lors, suppose to watch move and go town de... end up likedis.. stupid day...

2006-08-25T17:12:00.000+08:00

lol wonderful~ no more papers!!!!! hahax, shall enjoy... bt hmms, i carn enjoy too... coz nth to do~ sianzation... carn wait for 31st aug.. bt everytime likedis... sianz lorhs, i juz msged every1 of thm and only wei jie rep, smmore he gt work... i tot i early informed every1 le... thn likedis... kinda pissed... hmms, todae's paper was great... economics... wahahahahha, i luv econs... it was easier thn expected... well bt i cannot say i will get a very very gd grade... we shall see... time to SLEEP!!! bb people...

2006-08-21T20:19:00.000+08:00

ok its another 1week of nt blogging... seems like the motivation to blog has been dropping~ hmms, on the other hand guess is coz my life is kinda like a plank floating on the calm ocean... not muc activities... boooring... yups, accounts test was over.. it was hard... i juz hope i can get a B... there's one more to go... econs... fri is my last paper... MUAHAHAHAHAHA... alright so that's abt all... as i said, juz a plank floating around...

2006-08-14T14:29:00.000+08:00

so the relay dualthalon was quite alright... lol, saw innova jc peepx there so was like lookin out if agnes is there... bt she nvr go... ahahx... i was the first runner... the dod noe what jc once start off run so fast... very power... hahax, running quite alright bahx... thn gt into the canoe... kinda giddy... bt juz row, smmore no leg pedal arm power throughout... kinda sianz, coz i like i paddle awhile thn my right shoulder very tired... bt my left is perfectly alright... thn is like khalis did most of the rowing... hahax, bt e gd thing is that i can row straight wif him, wif wei siang i carn... dod noe y~ thn aft canoe is khalis turn to run... lol, at least we're the middle few nt last few... gt the goodie bag, kinda dumb... the only thing gd is the shirt... hahax, well M size is alright for me... went hm aft that... sunday woke up thn my family and I went to pray, aft tat my bro went to cut his hair... aft smtime we went to liang court coz my bro gotta collect his things there for the race... which is this sun at sentosa... hahahax... i bought a running top le, finally... it feels alot better thn wearin shirt to run... and we went to eat prata... the cheese is like so lil lors, the person very niao todae... tink is diff person... went hm and slack... oh ya, there's this idiotic kiddish person who tag my board without name... muz be too ashamed abt his own name... it this kind of people who EEKS people off~ lol, pathetic... this is my blog, if u dun like it, juz FU*K off...

2006-08-11T14:33:00.000+08:00

wooooooooooooooooooooooo, its like 7days of nt blogging... feel s lazy nowadays, carn blame... so revision week have started and yes, i have oso started on my revision... had canoe polo on sat... quite alright bahx, keep doin stern turn... thn all the other days stayed at hm~ boring, too bad low on cash, so must budget myself.. and yes HAPPY BELATED BDAE SINGAPORE!!! hahax, 9th went to marina mandarin we forget abt the ++ so end up frm 198 become 280bucks... lol, lucky we bought enuff, was playin ps2, eat and crap abt maple... hahahax, so funny~ and guess wat, we carn really c e fireworks~ stupidity... hahax, bt no choice lahx~ hmms, ok slept at ard 5am which is oso e time i slept on the 8th, erm i mean 9th... hahax, woke up at ard 8+ 9... ate mac for breakfast and went back to play ps2 awhile thn gotta go sch le, was like sleepin while standing up, thn experienced what khalis said b4, the knee suddendly like unlock thn will like wanna fall down... hahax, look ard, indeed people are laughin~ alrite fine... went sch for econs revision, its kinda dumb i wld say, coz we can study it ourselves... nvm, at least its smthing... had ec test shortly aft tat, it was quite boring... went hm straight... slept early ytd, and guess wat time i woke up 2dae~ 1.30pm... hahahahax... bt now still feel tired tink, wat muriel said last time was true... e longer u sleep the more tired u will be~ HAHHAX!!! oh well~ printed out the indemity form for the relay duathlon... tml will be my competition... will be running first... looked at the route like rather long~ guess i better drink more water... well, nt intending to win, juz wanna do my best.. coz is like so many seniors~ oh well... all e best to me... enuff for todae, shall go back to my revision...

haf been thinkin abt my past too, lol... it was fun~ especially all e gd memories... bt there's one particular one i hate, even my frenz hate her... LOL, too bad, she gt bad attitude problems... oh well~ smtimes its really gd to think abt e past~ gtg toodles~

2006-08-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

hmms, basically all i can say is, boring boring boring... nth happened bahx, juz e same old lectures, tutorial, go hm, sleep, go sch... sec sch life like more happening... yups, for like 2weeks nvr go train thn on tues go back, peepx tot i quit le... running was alright, bt aft doin push ups and all feel alil like blackin out, too long nvr trian le, thn weights i oso like quite lousy still... hahax, there's this two new gym guy there, like keep scoldin peepx tell thm do push ups, like very wat larhs... bt the gd pt is they point out our mistakes... thn i learnt how to train... its alot better thn sit ups... wahahaha... hmms, wed aft lesson thn go hm and sleep, todae was a boring day i shall say, econs and stats finished earlier, thn dod haf pacc, so is like so slack... fom oso very slack... bt crap alot wif khalis... hahax, went lib to do my pacc, tml won't get scolded by june le... hahax... carn wait for 31st aug, gonna go back sec sch wif my buddies to watch e concert aft tat crap wif e teacher's thn go play CS mayb after tat go and catch sm movie... its gonna be a fun day~ LOL!! i carn wait

2006-07-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

oh well, quite a few things happened nowadays... projects r over finally... well, mst is coming le... gonna do my best... hmms, there's quite alot to blog bt no mood...

and ya, there's this guy in my grp, which i'm REALLY PISSED OFF WITH... well, if you think u r so PROFESSIONAL, go and do ur PROFESSIONAL SLIDES UR OWN, FORM UR OWN GRP WITH JUZ THE SLIDE "MY GROUP MEMBERS - MR NOKIA N80(EAR-PIECE-IN-MY-EAR-GUY)". Please man, if u wannt be professional abt things, firstly, i suggest that we shld actually finish up our main work... what is a wonderfully designed bookcover without the contents? and do u noe its quite disrespectful to talk wif peepx with ur N80 headphones in ur ear all e time? and now wat, u go and tell peepx that u do so much work and all? so u're in other words sayin that i do very lil work? wanna to do my part? damn, if u like all the credits thn go follow my advice of forming ur own grp lahs, bloody idiot... professional idiot... and now wat, for the report we did all the things, and juz asked u to do e slides and wat did u do? nth... so that is wat u're referring as professional? u're getting on my nerves and they ain't made of steel... go and put ur N80 earpiece in ur ear bahx, why nt glue it to ur ear? it looks so COOL!!

2006-07-26T00:23:00.000+08:00

and yes, the dust on my blog... lol well sun was kinda slackin at hm all day, studying stats... thn in the evening my family and I went east coast park to jog... my dad and bro dod noe run how far... i was following my dad all e way till one part thn i turn back, in all i ran ard 7-8km... so happy that i can actually jog that distance... woooooooo~ my mum also ran rather far... lets c, mon was really boring, coz went school for CD which was at 10am and guess wat, FOM was cancelled, so is like we hav 6hrs break b4 the stats test at 5.10pm... so i went hm to slack... whn i set off to sch, there's this prob wif the NEL... end up i was late for 15mins, finished the paper on the dot, tink won't be scoring well.. sianz~ hmms nvm since its over shan't bother too much...as for ytd it was boring, juz lecture and crap... went hm immediately started on my project ppt slides, do till now... whew so tired... shall retire to my cosy rm soon... hahax... toodles

Patience...

2006-07-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

so long nvr blog le... well mon was the usual boring classes thn aft tat went hm straight to study for POA... hahax, tues same boring lectures and lessons followed by the pacc test, was quite alright, bt dod tink can score as well.. wed aft classes went fc3 to eat wif khalis was chatting all e way till 1430, thn i went off to town and khalis went to find his frenz for soccer... hahax, met FRIENDS outside bunk~ there's alot of peepx and we can only get a com at 6pm... so we went to city hall and carried out the checking of rates for the hotel outing... hahahax, national day we gonna get a hotel to c fire works thn play PS2 and all... LOL, so we decided on marina mandarine... so aft tat went back at 6pm, bunk till ard 8+ 9 thn we went to eat... hahax the katsu curry rice nt nice de... went hm and sleep, very tired... so lets c, thur gt lecture and more lecture... supposed to plan on our project bt we forgotten to bring our CD notes... hahax... as for fri was late for PACC, lucky nvr gt scolded... FOM saw the other grp's presentations... they did rather well worhs, all e details and info, like so nice... hmms, aft that went ITAB lesson awhile thn left le, met kh, jeremy and yu cong at convention center... took e bus back to deyi coz we promised zhong hong we will be back for the POP, reach le their parade haven start only, thn is like bluff our feelings coz we rushed down... watch the rehersal and all till ard 6pm thn e real parade... aft the POP, they actually cried, well we und their feelings, bt that time we manage to control ourselves... so aft helpin ourselves wif e buffet and talked to zhong hong awhile, we go off le... it was getting late... went hm sleep~ hahahax... as for todae studied stats, and i cut my hair le... alot shorter now, feel better... went running lab at funan to check out the style of my feet... so mine was neutral bt my left is a lil unbalance whn i walk or run... now i noe which type is for me le... hahax, aft everything went hm and studied more of stats... till awhile ago~ tml goin for a jog wif my family again... lol, gotta get ready for my dualthlon too... hahax~ my first competition in canoe...

2006-07-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

ytd was another day wif my FRIENDS... hahax, had fun throughout, juz that i'm rather tired coz i slept at 3am, and woke up at ard 9... hahax, bt its always fun hafing them around~ jac, jo and gab u guys r e best!! hahax!! so first met at orchard mrt and i reached first so there's all the donation peepx bombarding me wif their tins... and guess wat its the association that our class helped to arranged magazines for CIP... so whn jac reached i went down to the mrt and saw her, shortly we were approached by one guy asking us to donate 10bucks to the dod noe wat... thn jo arrived... even after we said no he continued to pester us~ i hate this kind lahx, donations is about people donating truefully... its our choice~ aft gab arrived we went to taka to eat... went to bunk aft tat, bt it was really crowed so we waited like crazy in e end only played for 40mins... went to jac's church aft tat, it was all in chinese... oh my~ i went nuts there, CHINESE!!! went back to taka, jac wanna buy her things, aft buyin we went to starhub centre or smth, passed by jo's and gab's church, which is oso zixin's church, lol!!! ate the baked rice which is very bad~ nt nice one... went hm aft tat...

todae woked up wif a very bad running nose... time juz passed till evening whn my family and i went to east coast, i didn't run, nose was killing me, so juz sat at the bench by the sea... the breeze was rather nice... went to eat prata aft they finished their run and bathed... 2 mushroom cheese, 1 banana cheese prata... woohooo~ lol, the cheese is marvellous... okok thats abt it... toodles...

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2006-07-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

hmms tues was nth much, juz the usual classes...
wed had EC test, quite alright lahx... aft tat stayed in sch till 3+ went to meet my FRIENDS... lol, as usual joke ard and crap... LOL, jac's laughter is very funny~ aft tat, while waiting for the 74 bus, saw a blind gentleman... so is like find him very poor thing, so decided to ask him wat bus he taking... i missed 3 74 b4 his bus came... lol, bt there's the happiness while helping people bahx~ hahax... and i met that lady who asked for the 2bucks at the 7-11, and this time she askin the cashier if they gt handbag~ dotx~ tink she abit weird... lol, smmore is tok wif e same attitude... HAHAHAHAX, lucky she nvr come ask for 2dollars again... blah blah~
thurs oso nth aft sch went hm and did my pacc... hahax...
and guess wat i woke up late for pacc~ how nice~ sianzation.. hahax, lessons was still quite alright... wif jokes going ard... aft sch went to deyi to visit my teachers... hahax, the security guard really very slow in reaction lahx... if real situation wonder how he handle lorx... dod even think he can run... gave him my ez link to exchange for e stupid pass... went to find e teachers, hahax, once enter the teachers rm was like saying hi to quite alot of teachers... so fun~ thn while miss foo was marking the books, i use the msn~ lol... so fun lahx~ feel so much like a teacher, coz i was in shirt... saw the ncc, they hafin camp for the sec 1s... hahax, xiao pangs~ went j8 aft tat, met up wif FRIENDS again... hahax, had our dinner thn went town to walk a lil~ tml we meeting again... hahax, we haf lotsa laughters and jokes todae lahx... oh, and ya... now thn i noe they actually noes zixin as they are from e same church~ WAAHAHAHAHAHAHA, so cool~ the world is really small...

speechless

2006-07-10T20:51:00.000+08:00

wanted to catch the finals, but carn wake up~ LOL!!! so slept all e way~ lucky CD lesson is cancelled too~ muahahahaha... went sch for marketing tutorial, thn revised econs aft that... nth much happened in sch i guess... the econs test was alot much easier this time... tink i can score better thn the previous test... well, we shall c... walking around is tough for me, coz during canoe polo on sun i cut my leg, and its a pretty deep cut... trying to make the limping nt visible all e while... every step was agony... so went hm aft sch, was listening to my mp3, and realised that the background music of "graduation" actually includes a small part of canon in d... tink mayb is coz i like canon in d too much till i figured that out... went hougang mall to buy smth, thn there's this indian lady come to me and this is how it goes
Lady: U GOT 2DOLLARS!!!??
ME: Pardon??
Lady: YOU GOT 2DOLLARS OR NOT??!!!
ME: NO!(Getting pissed with her attitude)
Lady: THEN GOT 1DOLLAR or 50CENTS???!!!
ME: NO NO NO NO
Lady: THEN WHAT U GOT?
ME: 10 bucks
LADY: CAN GIVE ME? I HELP YOU CHANGE~
ME: NO
and the lady went off in a pissed off manner... damn i was really pissed off by that, ask for money thn still shout and give sm fucking attitude, wtf... at first is alright, but once she said "U GOT 2DOLLARS OR NOT!!?" i got pissed off already... now tink about it, i should haf kept answering "WHY?!!".. oh well, spoiler of the day... still ask me gif her the 10dollars she help me change, pls, i can change it myself~ thn ltr come out wif sm stupid story like "Oh, i juz got robbed, no money" or "my purse is missing and i need to go hm~", or "i lost my car keys, i need to go hm now, my son is so hungry~"... well, this TRICKS r getting old, and even if u wanna use this kinda crap, do it in a good mannered way... not in sm WONDERFUL attitude that piss people off instead... or u want i bring u to police station thn u go report~ hahax, this incident reminds me of the AMK incident i encountered wif wei jie... a guy wif tatoos and a broken front teeth came to us asking if we haf change... and that guy approached wei jie in the morning for money too... so my fren replied "u asked me todae morning already", thn that guys starts threatening us not to anyhow say things or he will whack us, or use the god-knows-what thing on his hand to throw at our face... bt he is indeed very dumb, coz the police station, is juz right beside us... if thats really e case, go find e police and tell thm the same story lorx... idiot... oh well, wonder why they still have the face to do such things... have head, body, arms and legs still likedis... okok i'm starting to get pissed off thinking about this kinda thing, coz i rem whn i was in primary school i fell for this kinda trick... blah blah... okok, tml gonna get my canoe polo tee le... wahahahaha...

Changed my mind

2006-07-09T21:38:00.000+08:00

once again, its nt my day... hahax, early morning hafin nose problem le, during canoe polo, gt hit by khalis paddle~ BOOOO!!! went for canoe polo in the aftn, quite alright lahx, lil people... thn very sianz coz 12-2 only... bt finally i managed to do a stern tun le!! WOOHOOO!! lol, finally realise my mistake... my next challenge is to do it like the seniors... the boat can cut the water very deep... hahax, and we bdae bashed lex although i dod noe if its his bdae... poor guy~ got whacked by our slippers(the usual), thn they go wedggy him and take off his pants... LOL!!! and yups, we bought the canoe polo shirt... although i wanted the other one... bt oh well... tml econs test, all e best to me~ lol...

Decided

2006-07-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

well, once again todae wasn't my day... shall explain ltr in my entry.. so started of the day wif the usual routine... went out to eat, and off i went to kallang.. it was boring as usual... i juz dod like sprinting... so during the part whn we were practicing the twisting... while i place my hand in the water... there was a series of consecutive stinging feeling, thn i tot it was that small insect that bites... so i heck a lil, bt after like 20secs still pain i started to get suspicious abt it... soon it started to get read, and there's like fire burning inside, alot of stinging feeling and pain... so i told e senior and he said wash wif water and rest~ so i rest, thn can my hand started to swell le... bt lucky is juz a part of it... so i told e senior again, he say wash wif water again and rest, if gt prob c doctor... thn i was like abit sian le... bt lucky, it starts to recover whn i left~ so alright bahx, went beach road buy the ice mocha thingy... so nice~ blah blah... now my hand still gt that stingin feeling... hope its ok bahx~ tml having canoe polo @ 1130... dod noe till wat time... muahahahaa, i oso wanna study for econs tml... finished elasticity le... rather ez~ hope i can score 80+ this time~ okok enuff for todae, hungry le...

i juz keep asking~

2006-07-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

SIANZ SIANZ~ todae gonna stay up real late... gt lotsa things need to do~ so stress!! fom, itab, econs, stats, accounting... oh well~ nth much to blog i guess... lecture all day long... hmms, i really need to rest on the weekend bt having canoeing and oso need to study econs... guess, no choice bahx~ tink i go and carry on my work le... boring boring boring!!

I just don't noe what is going on now~ please show me sm hints...~~ i'm very lost...

2006-07-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

i juz dod und why m i getting weaker~ the weights i like doin e same~ bt like kinda ez to injure myself now~ last week was my biceps, this week was my shoulder and back~ wonder what's for nxt week~ bt feel very sianz, i can easily be ranked amongst the lousy few in weights~ thn nowadays can't make it for circuit and kallang due to studies, i very worried i won't get into the team~ i wanna be chosen to be in the polo team~ i want to win a medal... thn now can like argar c the seniors r getting down on me le~ shit this~ bt this few weeks will be our tests weeks, how m i gonna make it?? bt yups studies first~ juz hope they will undertsnad... boring and stressful days... well lecture r boring as usual... the econs lecturer talked about her daughter again~ bt it is a lil funny i shld admit~ carn believe most of the lecturers and tutors watches soccer.. hahax!! bt i juz dod like soccer... now doing the FOM research again~ wonder how to do research for target markets and stratergies NTUC uses... dod even think there's websites showing those info... cannot find through the databases... guess i have to write out my own~ tml will be another long day, 9-5... 4lectures!!! lucky gt the 3hr break~ well gtg... muz go learn sm ITAB oso... if nt i sure jialat~

I just keep wondering~ maybe i'm right all along...

2006-07-03T19:32:00.000+08:00

Haven been updating for awhile... sat's canoe polo was fun, lol, reached ard 7 and gt a gd boat wif a gt brace skirt... muahaha, so is like i dod need to empty the boat for very long... finally managed to do the turn le... although nt very gd bt can get my boat under sm other peepx boat le... lol... bt it wasn't really my day... gt hit by shaun's paddle and boat, gt hit by afiq's paddle and boat, and by khalis's boat... hahax... aft polo went hm, didn't went for kallang coz i rather sleepy le, during polo i oso cannot concentrate well~ todae went sch at ard 1pm... coz dod haf CD lesson for 3weeks... bt kinda dumb, coz go sch for 1hr only~ aft that had lunch le and went hm to study... well, nth much so far~ FOM project again~ all the work~ boooo!! hahax, think gonna haf a 408'05 class gathering ard the end of the year... woohooo~ carn wait to c my ex-classmates... and gonna play mahjong again?? lol

2006-06-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

NTKM is back to crap~ was wonderin wat is wif my blog coz i carn c the bgrd so heck care use the original one, hope that person's bandwidth dod exceed... LOL... oh well, yups, sch was boring as usual... blah blah... trainin was alright, i don't noe why but now my biceps sucks like crazy last time can do 15kg each side thn now is like 10kg each side oso abit wanna die le... think mayb is recovering... hopefully so~ oh well~ i miss canoe polo~~ lol.. well nth much bahx~ so life is juz going on as per normal... ups and downs...

boring days